The Guilt We Carry
A frantic race against the clock, against death, against inner demons. After Alice O'Farrell’s negligence in the tragic accident that results in her younger brother’s death, her life spirals out of control. That is, until the day she discovers a duffel bag full of cash and runs, quickly finding herself trapped in circumstances far more harrowing than her own past. Perfect for readers of The Girl on the Train and Winter’s Bone.Since the tragic accident that brutally ended her childhood, Alice O’Farrell has been haunted by her past. Unable to bear the guilt of negligence that led to the death of her younger brother, fifteen-year-old Alice runs away from home. She lives on the streets, makes one bad decision after another, and drowns her guilt in alcohol. But, everything changes when she stumbles upon a startling scene: a dead drug dealer and a duffel bag full of one hundred thousand dollars in cash. Recognizing this as an opportunity for a fresh start, Alice takes the money and runs. However, she soon finds herself fleeing from more than her own past—the dead dealer’s drug supplier wants his money back and will destroy her to get it. A merciless manhunt ensues, headed by Sinclair—a formidable opponent—relentless, shrewd, and brutal. As blood is spilled all around her, Alice is eventually faced with her day of reckoning. In the end, The Guilt We Carry is a story about redemption and forgiveness, but at what cost?

The Guilt We Carry Details

TitleThe Guilt We Carry
Author
LanguageEnglish
ReleaseJan 9th, 2019
PublisherOceanview Publishing
ISBN-139781608093205
Rating
GenreFiction, Suspense

The Guilt We Carry Review

  • Joseph
    January 1, 1970
    The Guilt We carry is a novel centering on Alice O'Farrell an all American girl. She is the star of the swim team and driven succeed. She seeks and is given responsibility at home. At fifteen her parents allow her to babysit her brother. It goes well and she again watches him again and in an almost impossible chain of events ends in tragedy. Alice is unable to face her parents and shortly afterward runs away. She is drawn into a world where she lives day to day at the bottom rungs of society. Sh The Guilt We carry is a novel centering on Alice O'Farrell an all American girl. She is the star of the swim team and driven succeed. She seeks and is given responsibility at home. At fifteen her parents allow her to babysit her brother. It goes well and she again watches him again and in an almost impossible chain of events ends in tragedy. Alice is unable to face her parents and shortly afterward runs away. She is drawn into a world where she lives day to day at the bottom rungs of society. She avoids drugs and prostitution but turns to alcohol and bartending in strip clubs. At fifteen, Alice avoids most of the snags that people hiding fall victim to. She has no drivers license or credit cards and can become essentially invisible. Alice is betrayed by her latest employer and is on the run again. Unfortunately, there is a pile of bodies left behind and Alice is hunted by drug dealers. Her escape will create a reluctant friendship and rekindle another. She will learn about guilt and not just her guilt. The darker elements of the story seem very deep but there is a glimmer of hope and freedom. Alice just must find her way to it and avoid the quick fixes that hide the symptoms rather than the address the cure. The characters are well developed and provide a variety of personas and several carry their own type of guilt as most people do. The settings vary from urban Harrisburg to rural North Carolina and bring with its own set of difficulties and prejudices.
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  • Linda Strong
    January 1, 1970
    Alice wakes up in a strange room, with a strange man lying next to her. She's suffering a bad hangover, and doesn't remember how she got there. But she does know the man and one thing for certain. she would never have gone with him unless she was drugged. She tries to quietly find her clothing, but the man seems dead to the world ... mainly because he is dead.It seems like she's made one bad decision after another for the past few years. She had had a bright future when she was a teenager... but Alice wakes up in a strange room, with a strange man lying next to her. She's suffering a bad hangover, and doesn't remember how she got there. But she does know the man and one thing for certain. she would never have gone with him unless she was drugged. She tries to quietly find her clothing, but the man seems dead to the world ... mainly because he is dead.It seems like she's made one bad decision after another for the past few years. She had had a bright future when she was a teenager... but a traumatic experience sent her reeling, and then living on the streets. Alcohol became her drug of choice ... anything to deaden the memory .. and the guilt.When she finds the man's duffel bag, she finds more than clean clothes .. and she makes another decision that is going to change the course of her life once again. And when she leaves, she leaves behind a total of 5 dead men ... and another one who will try to hunt her down.Alice is a terrific character. She's damaged, but still has hope that she can turn her life around someday. She's flawed, has issues, but she's hanging in there. And when she becomes the hunted, bodies fall and blood flows.Alice is eventually faced with her day of reckoning. In the end, The Guilt We Carry is a story about redemption and forgiveness, but at what cost?It's a well written story ... and I really enjoyed the use of sounds in the telling ... the sounds when underwater ... when a dryer is running .... when someone cocks a gun. It grabs from the very first and the suspense and tension is driven higher and higher. Many thanks to the author / Oceanview Publishing / Edelweiss for the digital copy of this crime fiction. Opinions expressed here are unbiased and entirely my own.
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  • Patricia Gussin
    January 1, 1970
    Alice is a young teenager, happy, smart, the star of her swim team.Until she is happy no more. A freak accident takes her younger brother's life while she is in-charge, his babysitter.After that, there is no happiness, only despair, and Alice leaves home, learns about life on the street. Once more a quirky twist presents when she wakes up with a dead body and a bag of cash and drugs. She takes the cash, leaves the body and drugs. Now hunted, she struggles to survive with her still-intact moral v Alice is a young teenager, happy, smart, the star of her swim team.Until she is happy no more. A freak accident takes her younger brother's life while she is in-charge, his babysitter.After that, there is no happiness, only despair, and Alice leaves home, learns about life on the street. Once more a quirky twist presents when she wakes up with a dead body and a bag of cash and drugs. She takes the cash, leaves the body and drugs. Now hunted, she struggles to survive with her still-intact moral values and to stay alive in the crosshairs of her violent pursuer. At the core of Alice's story is resilience, and finally, redemption. This is a gritty novel that throws you into the crucible that has become this young woman's life. Brilliantly written.
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  • Lori L (She Treads Softly)
    January 1, 1970
    The Guilt We Carry by Samuel W. Gailey is a highly recommended thriller and tale of redemption.In 2005 promising swimming star 15-year-old Alice O’Farrell is left to babysit her 4-year-old brother, Jason. He makes a huge fingernail polish mess in her bedroom and Alice yells at him. While she is trying to clean up the nail polish, Jason makes his way to the basement and somehow manages to trap himself in the dryer and dies. Guilt-ridden, Alice ran away from home soon after this. Six years later, The Guilt We Carry by Samuel W. Gailey is a highly recommended thriller and tale of redemption.In 2005 promising swimming star 15-year-old Alice O’Farrell is left to babysit her 4-year-old brother, Jason. He makes a huge fingernail polish mess in her bedroom and Alice yells at him. While she is trying to clean up the nail polish, Jason makes his way to the basement and somehow manages to trap himself in the dryer and dies. Guilt-ridden, Alice ran away from home soon after this. Six years later, she is an alcoholic working as a bartender at a strip joint in Harrisburg, PA. Since she ran away before she had a driver's license or a credit card, Alice has lived under the radar and moves frequently to avoid making any friends.When she wakes up after another drunken night next to the dead body of her boss, she needs a drink to figure out what to do. Next, she looks around the trailer and finds a bag with drugs and $91,000 in cash. The cash could give Alice a way out and up from the pit she is in, but the cash is tied to the drug dealer involved. Soon, Alice finds herself on the run, trying to stay away from the drug dealer who relentlessly pursues her, wanting her dead and his cash back. Even while on the run, Alice can't help but see a predatory man trying to take advantage of a teenage runaway and, recognizing the scenario, she intervenes, inadvertently adding another dimension to her escape.This is a tense, taunt, riveting thriller - violent, dark, and gritty. The scenes in the novel are very descriptive and visual, starting with Alice's promising skill as a swimmer to her excessive drinking to escape. The detailed descriptions continue throughout the narrative, increasing the anxiety and stress as you follow Alice's route to escape and the close pursuit of the drug kingpin who thinks nothing of leaving bodies in his wake.I flew through The Guilt We Carry. Alice is a flawed, but sympathetic well-developed character. Even while recognizing her flaws and failings, you will be hoping she escapes and finds a way out of the downward spiral she is in. While it is obvious a showdown of sorts will happen, the lead-up to it is intense. You will want her to find closure and redemption, and perhaps even a reconciliation and forgiveness with her parents. The supporting characters in the novel are also fairly well-developed and interesting. Disclosure: My review copy was courtesy of Oceanview Publishing.http://www.shetreadssoftly.com/2018/1...
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  • Frances Carrillo
    January 1, 1970
    A quick read but completely enjoyable. Loved two things, first how the way characters are developed, they are real and not model characters who you will always root for. For example you can appreciate the zombie like state her mother goes into and you feel the pain that Alice the main character carries through out her life because of the author's descriptive style. But the other thing that really stood out for me in the descriptive narrative. was the use of sound. I read a few reviews here that A quick read but completely enjoyable. Loved two things, first how the way characters are developed, they are real and not model characters who you will always root for. For example you can appreciate the zombie like state her mother goes into and you feel the pain that Alice the main character carries through out her life because of the author's descriptive style. But the other thing that really stood out for me in the descriptive narrative. was the use of sound. I read a few reviews here that did not like it, but it's actually those intensive glances into the moment the characters are experiencing that are so real. From the water in her swim meets you're heart is pounding with her listening to the nearby swimmers to the Kaplunk! Kaplunk! Kaplunk! that forever haunts the main character. It's like you are experiencing the moment because it is so visual and audible. That sound haunted me as i read. I enjoy a book that makes me feel real emotions.Very happy with this read and would highly recommend it if you like character drawn stories.
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  • Angie Lyn
    January 1, 1970
    Page turner! Packed with details so you feel like you are walking beside the main character! Must read!
  • Kathleen Gray
    January 1, 1970
    Alice's perfect life spiraled out of control after her younger brother died while she was responsible for him. She's descended into a world where there's no good news. Then she finds a big bag of money and thinks things will look up. Not. Now she's being hunted down by the man who wants the money back. This is a good story at it's root but it would have benefited from an edit to pare a bit. I think this actually would make quite a good movie. Thanks to Edelweiss for the ARC. Worth a read.
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  • Isabelle
    January 1, 1970
    (I received a free eARC from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review.)DNF at 16%. This book could have potential, but it needs seriously heavy editing first. The first flag was the very first chapter, featuring Alice in a swimming competition — and gratuitous description of everything from how far away each of her competitors is to how water muffles the roar of the crowd to the green of her eyes behind mirrored goggles that tint the world amber and the color of her hair tucked under her swim (I received a free eARC from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review.)DNF at 16%. This book could have potential, but it needs seriously heavy editing first. The first flag was the very first chapter, featuring Alice in a swimming competition — and gratuitous description of everything from how far away each of her competitors is to how water muffles the roar of the crowd to the green of her eyes behind mirrored goggles that tint the world amber and the color of her hair tucked under her swim cap. It’s an awkward and excessive way to describe the protagonist at fifteen, especially since we get another round of physical description a few chapters later: she’s now twenty-one, guilt-stricken after her baby brother’s death following her negligence as a babysitter, and figuring out exactly how hungover she is on a painstakingly detailed scale from one to five. The writing leaves nothing to the imagination, whether in terms of visual details, character motivations, or plot, so I felt completely shut out of the narrative and uninterested in trying to get closer.
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  • Ashley
    January 1, 1970
    ARC from EdelweissThis book was unfortunately not one I could read. I got a few chapters in and couldn't do it. If the book had some extra editing it may have improved.
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