How She Died, How I Lived
I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed.On the eve of Kyle's sentencing a year after Jamie's death, all the other "chosen ones" are coping in various ways. But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying past and the unknown future as she tries to piece together why she gets to live, while Jamie is dead.Now she finds herself drawn to Charlie, Jamie's boyfriend--knowing all the while that their relationship will always be haunted by what-ifs and why-nots. Is hope possible in the face of such violence? Is forgiveness? How do you go on living when you know it could have been you instead?

How She Died, How I Lived Details

TitleHow She Died, How I Lived
Author
LanguageEnglish
ReleaseNov 13th, 2018
PublisherLittle, Brown
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GenreYoung Adult, Contemporary, Fiction

How She Died, How I Lived Review

  • Kayla Brunson
    January 1, 1970
    "I want to be alive. And to be okay with being alive."I went into this book expecting to come out an emotional wreck. Sadly, that wasn't my outcome. In short, this book lacked the dept that I was expecting and was really formed as just another contemporary. Now, I'm not saying that it's a bad book. This covers topics from survivor's guilt, moving on, and being true to yourself. I feel like we could have really dived more deeply into those emotions, but the writing wasn't there. "I don't even kno "I want to be alive. And to be okay with being alive."I went into this book expecting to come out an emotional wreck. Sadly, that wasn't my outcome. In short, this book lacked the dept that I was expecting and was really formed as just another contemporary. Now, I'm not saying that it's a bad book. This covers topics from survivor's guilt, moving on, and being true to yourself. I feel like we could have really dived more deeply into those emotions, but the writing wasn't there. "I don't even know if justice is a thing. If it's possible."For the most part, I really enjoyed the narration that we received from Jaime. she asked the questions that are hard to ask. I liked being on the journey with her while she found a way to try and move on and learn to forgive for something tragic.What really drove my rating down was the romance. I didn't see the need for it nor did I like it. Being with someone who's girlfriend died a year ago when it could have been you just doesn't seem like it should happen. Charlie didn't really need to be in a relationship. He was full of too much grief and pain. He was still mourning the loss of Jaime. How can you be in a relationship with someone whose mourning the person they loved and expect them to love you too? Overall, while it wasn't terrible, I just feel that the romance and excess background plot took away from this story being better for me.  ARC provided for an honest review. Quotes are subject to change upon publication. Blog | Instagram | Twitter
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  • PinkAmy loves \u0026#x1f495; books\u0026#x1f4d6;, cats\u0026#x1f63b; and naps\u0026#x1f6cf;
    January 1, 1970
    1.5 STARSWhen people say, “Don’t judge a book by its cover,” believe them. The cover and blurb of HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED made me think I’d read an emotionally-charged thriller. Instead the book left me not caring.Mary Crockett’s writing is the strongest part of the book, the plot and characters are the weakest. HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED is filled with dysfunctional relationships, often due to lack of communication, yet Crockett rarely addressed the problems. She did a good job of representing 1.5 STARSWhen people say, “Don’t judge a book by its cover,” believe them. The cover and blurb of HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED made me think I’d read an emotionally-charged thriller. Instead the book left me not caring.Mary Crockett’s writing is the strongest part of the book, the plot and characters are the weakest. HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED is filled with dysfunctional relationships, often due to lack of communication, yet Crockett rarely addressed the problems. She did a good job of representing partying, but there were never any consequences other than hangovers. The PTSD she included seemed to be plot, not character motivated and then disappeared midway through the story. I disliked the ending most of all. The unnamed narrator decides to forgive the murderer after little introspection or therapy to process her feelings. She becomes preachy (not in a religious sense) and intolerant that the victim’s ex, her now boyfriend, still wants him dead. And what’s up with not giving the narrator a name.I don’t recommend HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED.
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  • Shelby
    January 1, 1970
    I received an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.I really, really enjoyed “How She Died, How I Lived,” much more than I was anticipating. I was expecting it to be a bit of a thriller, definitely on the darker side, but I was pleasantly surprised by the variety of emotion in this book. We follow our main character (who remains mysteriously unnamed) as she deals with survivor’s guilt. She and four other girls were texted by a boy named Kyle. Only one replied—and she was raped and m I received an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.I really, really enjoyed “How She Died, How I Lived,” much more than I was anticipating. I was expecting it to be a bit of a thriller, definitely on the darker side, but I was pleasantly surprised by the variety of emotion in this book. We follow our main character (who remains mysteriously unnamed) as she deals with survivor’s guilt. She and four other girls were texted by a boy named Kyle. Only one replied—and she was raped and murdered for doing so. Our main character now struggles as, a year later, Kyle’s trial is coming up and she must testify.This first thing I want to mention is the writing style. The way the story is told is absolutely mesmerizing. I genuinely cannot express how beautifully written this book is, so cue me being redundant and repetitive. I also loved our characters! Lindsey, Charlie, and our main character were all fleshed out so well. I felt like they were real people, living a real life and struggling through real things. I love a character driven story, and that’s exactly what this was. The narrator was trying to find out how she could be okay with surviving when the “better person” was killed—and it could have just as easily been her. This internal struggle (that occasionally was voiced externally) was such a raw and emotional one to see. The author did a wonderful job of explaining what the character was going through.Overall, I was so happy with “How She Died, How I Lived.” I was hesitant going into it because I was afraid it was going to be really out of my comfort zone, but I’m so glad I picked it up! I would absolutely recommend this to anyone.
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  • Crystal Zavala
    January 1, 1970
    First, let me say that I should have checked to see who the target audience was before I started this book. The book cover says 14+, so I am going to take that to mean that it is considered to be YA. After reading the book, I would definitely agree that it is written for a high schooler. The topics are probably a little too heavy for a middle reader. Because I didn't realize that the book was written for 14-18 year olds, I initially struggled with the simplicity of the writing. However, if I had First, let me say that I should have checked to see who the target audience was before I started this book. The book cover says 14+, so I am going to take that to mean that it is considered to be YA. After reading the book, I would definitely agree that it is written for a high schooler. The topics are probably a little too heavy for a middle reader. Because I didn't realize that the book was written for 14-18 year olds, I initially struggled with the simplicity of the writing. However, if I had read this book as a high school girl, I would have loved it.Mary Crockett is also a poet as well as a novelist. I found that to be very clear as she had the characters reciting poetry, performing Shakespeare, and quoting song lyrics. Poetry is not my cup of tea, but I know it resonates with many teenagers.I found the story itself to be well written. The characters were all relatable as high school kids. There was one character that I felt didn't add to the story and was left hanging at the end. The parents did frustrate me because as a parent, because I would have all these children in therapy for going through the trauma that they had experienced.Overall, I do think that this book would be a good read for a teenager.
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  • Paige Green
    January 1, 1970
    Disclaimer: I received this book from KidLitExchange. Thanks! All opinions are my own.Rating: 3/5Publication Date: November 13th, 2018Genre: YA ContemporaryRecommended Age: 15+ (survivor’s guilt, tragedy, regret, grief, mature scenes, romance) (trigger warning for rape and murder)Pages: 416Author WebsiteAmazon LinkSynopsis: I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed. Disclaimer: I received this book from KidLitExchange. Thanks! All opinions are my own.Rating: 3/5Publication Date: November 13th, 2018Genre: YA ContemporaryRecommended Age: 15+ (survivor’s guilt, tragedy, regret, grief, mature scenes, romance) (trigger warning for rape and murder)Pages: 416Author WebsiteAmazon LinkSynopsis: I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed. On the eve of Kyle's sentencing a year after Jamie's death, all the other "chosen ones" are coping in various ways. But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying past and the unknown future as she tries to piece together why she gets to live, while Jamie is dead.Now she finds herself drawn to Charlie, Jamie's boyfriend--knowing all the while that their relationship will always be haunted by what-ifs and why-nots. Is hope possible in the face of such violence? Is forgiveness? How do you go on living when you know it could have been you instead?I felt this story was okay. The characters were interesting and the plot was developed. The premise behind this book is really intriguing as well and I think it’s worth a read if you’re interested.However, I feel that the book was really really confusing. I got lost in the world constantly and I feel that the writing style didn’t help my confusion. The book really frustrated me and at the end I just skimmed over a lot of this book.Verdict: It’s worth the read if you can get through the text.
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  • Stephanie Ward
    January 1, 1970
    'How She Died, How I Lived' is a very relevant and heartbreaking young adult contemporary novel that deals with several important topics and real life scenarios. I know that there's supposed to be a silver lining in this book, a sense of hope that filters through. But for me, this book was just incredibly sad and thought provoking. The topics that it covers - survivor's guilt, death, hate, love, forgiveness, moving on, being true to yourself (to name just a few) are really serious and incredibly 'How She Died, How I Lived' is a very relevant and heartbreaking young adult contemporary novel that deals with several important topics and real life scenarios. I know that there's supposed to be a silver lining in this book, a sense of hope that filters through. But for me, this book was just incredibly sad and thought provoking. The topics that it covers - survivor's guilt, death, hate, love, forgiveness, moving on, being true to yourself (to name just a few) are really serious and incredibly relevant to anyone in today's society. I empathized so much with the main character, it made me hurt inside to hear all the details inside the story. She was very realistic and easy to identify with right from the beginning. The story is told from the first person point of view, from the main character's perspective. I love this writing style and I think it's the perfect fit for this novel. It wouldn't have had the same impact if it had been written in another way. But the author hits a home run right into the reader's heart by using the narrator's first person POV. The other characters were pretty flat, which was fine with me because this seemed more like a single person character study anyway. Even though I enjoyed the story and found it incredibly moving, there was a part of me that just couldn't get completely into the novel. It might be because I don't normally read YA contemporary, so I felt way out of my comfort zone. It doesn't reflect on the story, the writing, or the author in any way - these are solely my personal opinions. I do definitely recommend it to fans of the genre as well as readers who are interested in very relevant topics in today's society and how people deal with tragedy.Disclosure: I received a copy of the book in exchange for an honest review.
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  • Kate
    January 1, 1970
    ***I received a free eArc from Edelweiss***Although the hook is what caught me- 5 local girls are sent a text that only one of them answers, and when she meets with the boy they all know, she is brutally beaten, raped, and murdered- I stayed for the MC's grief and sense of being outside her old life. A year later and our main character, un-named, is dealing with survivor's guilt, her world once more rocked by the killer's upcoming sentencing. She's also starting to fall for the dead girl's boyfr ***I received a free eArc from Edelweiss***Although the hook is what caught me- 5 local girls are sent a text that only one of them answers, and when she meets with the boy they all know, she is brutally beaten, raped, and murdered- I stayed for the MC's grief and sense of being outside her old life. A year later and our main character, un-named, is dealing with survivor's guilt, her world once more rocked by the killer's upcoming sentencing. She's also starting to fall for the dead girl's boyfriend, both of them haunted by memories, anger and confusion. This is one of those books that's so hard to put in a category, not a thriller or a mystery, although our MC's world is now filled with the knowledge that a boy she hardly knew had premeditated her murder, but any girl would have done as long as she answered his text. It's not a romance, although it contains love stories, broken hearts and unrequited love. It's not a just a book about grief, although it is a major issue all the characters are dealing with. It's all those things, all those emotions. This is definitely going on my top ten of 2018 list!**I also read the author's notes at the end, and how she came by the idea for this story, which made me love the story even more.***
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  • Hallie
    January 1, 1970
    Thanks to @kidlitexchange network for the free review copy of this book--all opinions are my ownThe unnamed narrator is one of five girls that Kyle texted the day he murdered Jamie. Kyle senselessly and brutally murdered one of his classmates at random and now his sentencing is coming up. The narrator can't forget how easily she could have been the one who was killed that day. This book is about many things--grief, regret, justice, and new beginnings. It tackles survivor's guilt and how overcome Thanks to @kidlitexchange network for the free review copy of this book--all opinions are my ownThe unnamed narrator is one of five girls that Kyle texted the day he murdered Jamie. Kyle senselessly and brutally murdered one of his classmates at random and now his sentencing is coming up. The narrator can't forget how easily she could have been the one who was killed that day. This book is about many things--grief, regret, justice, and new beginnings. It tackles survivor's guilt and how overcome you can feel when you're close to a tragedy. It also tackles large issues like who serves justice and how far you should go to see punishment served. The 400 page book is written in short chapters that make the story go by faster. It includes sweet moments of a budding romance and scenes of friendship between the girls that Kyle targeted. It has a short-lived mystery with some anonymous notes but overall it's not a suspenseful novel. It's more about how to move on after a tragedy strikes.Recommended for readers of contemporary YA and those who liked This Is Where It Ends.
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  • Bee
    January 1, 1970
    DNF at 48%It's interesting but also tediously boring.
  • Bookworm LLC
    January 1, 1970
    How She Died, How I Lived is a story about a girl who was murdered and the friends who were left to wonder why her. I liked the story line but felt there were times the author went "Squirrel". At times it took reading a paragraph before you understood who was telling the story. I just don't know what else to say about it. The writing style wasn't to my liking.
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  • Emmi Rose (emmirosereads)
    January 1, 1970
    Thank you once again to the NOVL for sending me an early copy to read and review. I'm confident that this is not a case of a bad book at all. How She Died, How I lived was well written, with solid characters and a great premise. I think it simply just wasn't a book for me and wasn't what I was expecting. It didn't quite provoke the emotions I thought it would either. For being a book about survivors guilt and grief I felt like it didn't go into much depth about it. It seemed pretty surface leve Thank you once again to the NOVL for sending me an early copy to read and review. I'm confident that this is not a case of a bad book at all. How She Died, How I lived was well written, with solid characters and a great premise. I think it simply just wasn't a book for me and wasn't what I was expecting. It didn't quite provoke the emotions I thought it would either. For being a book about survivors guilt and grief I felt like it didn't go into much depth about it. It seemed pretty surface level to me and felt way more like a typical slice of life, highschool contemporary. Which of course there is nothing wrong with that, but it's just not something I find myself being able to enjoy often. At the same time, I can completely understand why Mary Crockett wrote it that way and it might be the point. I think it seems very true to life for circumstances like our narrators is going through, and a year after the event happened. Especially since our narrator wasn't that extremely close to Jamie. Life moves on and around you, and often you'll have to move with it. Though while she's going through life she has these thoughts and things she's struggling with and just trying to find value in her own life. So I'm really not sure at all how I feel. I can't say I enjoyed it and I wished it was delved into more, but at the same time I can understand and see why it wouldn't be necessarily so. How She Died, How I lived was a very beautifully written book, like I said before. Straightforward where it needs to be, but lyrical and thought provoking when it really makes an impact. While I wish things got delved into deeper there were still a few really impactful paragraphs throughout this book that really hit me. Especially as a girl who could just as easily be going through this and dealing with the fears that our narrator does. And some lines that were just simply beautiful. "I guess I should just be happy he didn't get me alone in some room.And I am.But I'm also sick of being thankful that some horrible thing miraculously didn't happen to me." "Our grief is our signature, with everyone dotting the i in their own special way.""What if no one loved her? Would that make it somehow okay? Does she only matter if she's someone else's sister or wife? What about her, just herself? Isn't that enough?" This was also written with very short chapters which made this book very easy to fly through, which is something I always love and appreciate. We also have a lot of really good characters and sweet relationships. It was really great to see each one and how they currently are and how they really reacted to Jamie's death. I really loved Lindsey's and our narrator's friendship and I think they really balance each other out. You can really see that despite their disagreements they're always there for each other. I also really liked the development that our main character goes through. You really see her thought process from a year ago when the event happened, to a year later when the book starts and then at the end when her perspective really changes.I think the biggest thing that bothered me about this book, and what really made me give it a lower rating, was the romance. I rarely ever hate romance in books. As a hopeless romantic myself it's something I actually love and look for but in this case I felt like it completely took away from the story. It felt completely unnecessary, insta-lovey and rushed. I probably would have given this book a three star, maybe even four if it wasn't for that fact. In my opinion I think there would have been so much more value if Charlie and the narrator simply bonded as friends and stayed that way though out the book. Also, something else that kind of bothers me thinking about it now is the fact that the narrator remains unnamed throughout the entire book. I can't figure out any apparent reason why this would be so. Obviously if there was an explained point to it all, it would make sense and not bother me at all, but there's nothing that I can tell. It just makes me curious if there's a reason behind it. Again, not necessarily a bad book at all just not my cup of tea. If you go in aware of what this book is really about, I think you'll enjoy it. If you generally enjoy contemporaries, I think it'll be something you love. But if you're expecting a thriller or a really intense book I don't think you'll quite get it here.
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  • Alex (Briennai)
    January 1, 1970
    The main character is beating herself up because she feels that Kyle should have killed her, not her friend Jamie. She almost went to meet Kyle, and it could have been her. Now, a year later, Kyle is getting sentenced. She has to go with her other four friends and testify against him, and she will see him for the first time since he killed Jamie. She doesn't know how she is going to deal with it, or her attraction to Charlie, Jamie's ex-boyfriend. This book is about the main character and her fr The main character is beating herself up because she feels that Kyle should have killed her, not her friend Jamie. She almost went to meet Kyle, and it could have been her. Now, a year later, Kyle is getting sentenced. She has to go with her other four friends and testify against him, and she will see him for the first time since he killed Jamie. She doesn't know how she is going to deal with it, or her attraction to Charlie, Jamie's ex-boyfriend. This book is about the main character and her friends healing. There are many side plots, including the trouble that her friends get into as they are grieving. I will not give any names besides Charlie, for spoiler purposes, but the side plots make up the majority of the book. This book is definitely important for YA readers. Sometimes things happen and people die. Sure, not everyone has one of their semi-close friends murdered in high school. But whether it be in high school or college or young adult life, almost everyone is going to see someone they know die unexpectedly. Whether it is something as big as a murder or as normal as a car accident, it will happen. People will have to deal with it. I liked how the main character noticed her own stages of grief and learned how to cope in her own way, instead of just allowing herself to drown. One thing that was a little strange was Charlie's emotional outbursts. I thought that we would get some sort of clarification as to why he was so upset. Like, we understand that your girlfriend died, but sometimes he was acting a little crazy. I thought that he would come out and say that he and his girlfriend had a fight right before she died, and so he felt like he was the reason that she saw Kyle that day. Or that his girlfriend had been cheating on him with Kyle. Something to warrant him being so unstable during the time, more unstable than I considered to be normal. But no surprising details were given. He was simply upset. This was even a lesson for me about grief, that it sometimes isn't "normal."Then there was a bit of a love triangle, but luckily it sort of went away by the middle to end of the book. I was able to overlook it and focus more on the better parts of the story. This book had so much to offer, and even though it felt very long to read, I thought that the read was worth it. If the book had been paced faster it might have been quicker to read, but I don't think we would have gotten all the details that the slower pace allowed. Overall, this was really an enlightening read. It wasn't a fun or easy read, but it was realistic and important. I would recommend this book to lovers of YA fiction. I received an advance copy of this novel. 
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  • Lily (latestreads)
    January 1, 1970
    *Thank you to TheNovl for sending me an ARC of this book. Please know that the opinions expressed are my own.2.5 stars"I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed."At first glance, I thought that this book would be filled with the suspense of the narrator's story and her near miss with death. Instead, How She Died, How I Lived, tells the story of her recovery and her *Thank you to TheNovl for sending me an ARC of this book. Please know that the opinions expressed are my own.2.5 stars"I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed."At first glance, I thought that this book would be filled with the suspense of the narrator's story and her near miss with death. Instead, How She Died, How I Lived, tells the story of her recovery and her somewhat bland life known as one of the girls who survived.And the story was okay but it, unfortunately, wasn't super memorable.For example, the characters fell into very cliche roles. There was the boyfriend of the dead girl, the best friend who also survived, and a musician who wants to date the MC.In some cases, like this, the cliche characters don't bother me too much. The story only really follows the story of a girl and her recovery path; the characters don't have to be that distinct. I was able to see the narrator's recovery because the other characters didn't stand out and I wasn't distracted by them. Of course, I would have loved for the characters to be more original and I wish I learned more about Kyle, the murderer. All I knew is that he was in the MC's math class and that they got high together. I feel as if the lack of distinction and originality in the characters made it hard for me to get attached. When there were somewhat sad or moments with lots of emotions, I didn't feel anything for the characters. The character relationships were also shaky. The narrator and her friend are constantly fighting and arguing over the most trivial things. They would go for days without talking to each other because one didn't approve of the other's boyfriend. It just seems juvenile and annoying at times. The relationship the narrator had with Charlie, the dead girl's boyfriend also seemed way too rushed. It had only been about a year since Jamie died and no matter how many times he insisted, Charlie was obviously not ready for another relationship. Especially with one of the girls that survived. It seems especially untimely considering that Kyle's trial is taking place at the same time.The plot of the book sounded like it would have been full of emotions and maybe some suspense. Sadly, the story did not meet these expectations. And while it was nice to see the narrator recover, not a lot of the recovery was shown. There was one part in the book, in the week or so leading up to the trial, where it looked as if it was picking up! I got so excited because it happened to the other survivors as well. But it was just a false alarm, which was severely disappointing. The majority of the story focused, instead of on the healing process, on romantic relationships and parties. It seemed as if all the characters did was go to parties. I understand that they are teenagers, but I don't want to read about them going to parties and then getting hung-over over and over again.To add more interest to this book, I felt as if the book could have used flashbacks. Maybe it could have opened with flashbacks of Kyle and the narrator in math class and then slowly build to the scene where he texts her. Or Crockett could have included perspectives from other characters, maybe Kyle or Charlie. Like what was Kyle thinking during the trail or maybe why he killed Jamie. The ending was also not done satisfactorily. There was a lot of built-up suspense, and then an anti-climatic ending. I think that there was a cop-out and the conclusion was messy. I should have seen the ending coming as there was only one way to finish this book in-line with the MC's recovery. In conclusion, How She Died, How I Lived was not the worst book. I liked the book, but it lacked in any real, substantial story. The characters weren't very strong, and all that they really did was attend parties. There were moments where I thought that there would be some suspense, but it leads to nothing. However, it was good to see the narrator's healing and acceptance process. The ending wasn't that good, it was quite disappointing, to be honest. Yes, there are some well written moments, but I did not enjoy the majority of the book. I don't necessarily think I would recommend this book.
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  • Emily (Richmond Reader)
    January 1, 1970
    3.5* [First impression- this book is a thriller. After reading- way more contemporary.]For someone (me) who is already so hyper aware of what happens to girls at the hands of selfish, angry and desperate men... I just don't want this book to make others paranoid. We shouldn't live our lives in fear. Live aware, live safely, live smart, but not paranoid or in constant fear.This is a story of survivor's guilt.Our main character has no name. This was intentional, the author's way of saying "This co 3.5* [First impression- this book is a thriller. After reading- way more contemporary.]For someone (me) who is already so hyper aware of what happens to girls at the hands of selfish, angry and desperate men... I just don't want this book to make others paranoid. We shouldn't live our lives in fear. Live aware, live safely, live smart, but not paranoid or in constant fear.This is a story of survivor's guilt.Our main character has no name. This was intentional, the author's way of saying "This could happen to anyone. It could happen to you." Our first person narrator was one of five girls texted one night by a classmate named Kyle, who later killed the only girl who responded, Jamie Strand. The only thing the girls had in common was their cars. Kyle's premeditated plan was to act out his twisted fantasy then steal the girl's car to get away. He left so many broken in his wake.Later in the book, the surviving four girls receive gifts from an unknown sender telling each "It's not your fault." This gives the story suspense, but ultimately falls flat later.I want to point out the differences between this book and other YA works of fiction, like how this novel really didn't have a ton of rising action, building up to a huge climax and then a heartfelt resolution (ok it had a nice ending). I think the novel's purpose is deeper than just entertaining the reader. It tells a straight forward, yet fictional, story of the realistic actions of a sick man and how loss effects everyone around the tragedy. So I'm having trouble deciding what to rate it.This book reminded me of "Speak" by Laurie Halse Anderson and "Love You Hate You Miss You" by Elizabeth Scott.PS. A book from Charlie's perspective would be really cool.
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  • Lovely Loveday
    January 1, 1970
    How She Died, How I Lived is one of those books that is hard to place into a certain category, not a thriller or mystery. A story that is an emotionally intense read that touches on a wide range of emotions from love, grief, forgiveness, second chances, and dying. When a life is cut short because of a horrific attack many wonders why her and not one of the other girls that day. “Why wasn’t it me?”  An intriguing read that is sure to keep you on the edge of your seat. How She Died, How I Lived is How She Died, How I Lived is one of those books that is hard to place into a certain category, not a thriller or mystery. A story that is an emotionally intense read that touches on a wide range of emotions from love, grief, forgiveness, second chances, and dying. When a life is cut short because of a horrific attack many wonders why her and not one of the other girls that day. “Why wasn’t it me?”  An intriguing read that is sure to keep you on the edge of your seat. How She Died, How I Lived is an emotional read that may not be for everyone. A story that is sure to stay with you long after reading.  
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  • Heidi Hobson
    January 1, 1970
    How She Died, How I Lived is a powerful story about what it means to be a teenage girl in a world where others feel entitled to your body. It's also about trauma, grief, and learning to love yourself. I felt Crockett did a really good job, except one chapter towards the end which was both preachy and unnecessary.This is a great read for young women who want a role model who speaks up for herself, but also for young men who don't understand why the world feels more dangerous to women.There are fr How She Died, How I Lived is a powerful story about what it means to be a teenage girl in a world where others feel entitled to your body. It's also about trauma, grief, and learning to love yourself. I felt Crockett did a really good job, except one chapter towards the end which was both preachy and unnecessary.This is a great read for young women who want a role model who speaks up for herself, but also for young men who don't understand why the world feels more dangerous to women.There are frank, graphic descriptions of violence, but I think they're an important part of the novel.
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  • Emily
    January 1, 1970
    This book is one that is amazingly real and hauntingly poetic. The story is one that could happen at anytime and it doesn’t cover the dirt of humanity and the recklessness of human emotion. Instead, it makes you feel and puts you in a position to understand what victims and families of those who have lost loved ones to violence have gone through in their grief and pain. This book is one that I will definitely pick up again.
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  • Lindsay
    January 1, 1970
    A meaningful story centered on justice and what it means to forgive.Thank you Edelweiss for the ARC.
  • Deborah Hightower
    January 1, 1970
    Thriller about an unspeakable crime and how the teenagers that knew the victim struggled to heal and go on with their lives. Good read.
  • Written Melodies
    January 1, 1970
    At times, the book was a bit dark, but it was an interesting read.
  • Katy Wineke
    January 1, 1970
    A mostly beautiful look at life--and living, death, forgiveness, and love.
  • Mariana D
    January 1, 1970
    This book was very good and very deep.And very very dark. I love the cover art.If you are innocent, do not read this because it will ruin your innocence.
  • Kris
    January 1, 1970
    I enjoyed this book a lot. The story was intriguing and I’m glad I got to read it early
  • Hannah
    January 1, 1970
    This was such a boring book. Nothing really happened. And I dont even know why it affected her as much as it did. I mean, Jaime wasnt even a friend. It was just dumb.
  • Madelyn
    January 1, 1970
    What happens when you're the one left behind? Layered & thoughtful. I still hear the narrator's voice in my head.
  • Tricia Leininger
    January 1, 1970
    How She Died, How I Lived by Mary Crockett is an emotionally intense read that touches on grief, love, living, dying, and most of all forgiveness. A life was taken in a vicious attack that could have been any of five girls texted one day. However, the only one to respond was Jamie, and her kindness got her killed. How do you live with knowing that if you’d just responded to the text, Jamie may still be alive? Get into our narrator’s head and experience survivor’s guilt, acceptance, forgiveness a How She Died, How I Lived by Mary Crockett is an emotionally intense read that touches on grief, love, living, dying, and most of all forgiveness. A life was taken in a vicious attack that could have been any of five girls texted one day. However, the only one to respond was Jamie, and her kindness got her killed. How do you live with knowing that if you’d just responded to the text, Jamie may still be alive? Get into our narrator’s head and experience survivor’s guilt, acceptance, forgiveness and the strength to hope for a new beginning, all while wondering, “Why wasn’t it me?”
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  • Mary Crockett
    January 1, 1970
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