Sadie
Sadie hasn't had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she's been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water. But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie's entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister's killer to justice and hits the road following a few meagre clues to find him.When West McCray—a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America—overhears Sadie's story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie's journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it's too late.For the complete experience: The Girls Podcast

Sadie Details

TitleSadie
Author
LanguageEnglish
ReleaseSep 4th, 2018
PublisherWednesday Books
ISBN-139781250105714
Rating
GenreYoung Adult, Mystery, Contemporary, Fiction

Sadie Review

  • Emily May
    January 1, 1970
    And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl. Holy hell, this book hit me hard.I've been reading Summers' books for seven years now and she is both consistently good and continually getting better. I remember thinking that Some Girls Are was one of the most powerful and vicious books I'd ever read back in 2011. Then All the Rage came along and destroyed me some more.Whether Summers is writing a contemporary high school novel, a mystery, or a zombie apocalypse, she crawls right inside And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl. Holy hell, this book hit me hard.I've been reading Summers' books for seven years now and she is both consistently good and continually getting better. I remember thinking that Some Girls Are was one of the most powerful and vicious books I'd ever read back in 2011. Then All the Rage came along and destroyed me some more.Whether Summers is writing a contemporary high school novel, a mystery, or a zombie apocalypse, she crawls right inside the deepest, darkest parts of teen girl minds. She explores their grief, their love, their hopes, fears and passions, and she does it in such a way that her characters become unforgettable, feeling at once completely unique AND universal.And this book? This book made me cry. I felt so deeply for Sadie as she goes in search of the man who hurt her sister. Her sister, Mattie, who was her whole world. And yeah, yeah, we've read the "doing it for my sister/brother" a million times in YA but here it's so different. Sadie played the role of mother to Mattie when their own mother disappeared. Their relationship is special; complicated. “She’s dead,” I whisper and I don’t know why this is the thing I choose to say out loud because it hurts to say it, to feel the truth of those words pass my lips, to have them be real in this world. But She’s dead is the reason I’m still alive.She’s dead is the reason I’m going to kill a man. Sadie goes on a journey from place to place, fighting against her severe stutter along the way, all to find one man. And West McCray’s investigation leads him along the same trail, the before and after racing each other to the end.I think the framing of this story was PERFECT. The author splits the narrative between a radio presenter, West McCray, as he investigates Sadie’s disappearance, and the first person perspective of Sadie herself, as she hunts down her sister’s killer.The juxtaposition of McCray’s detached radio voice with the passion and determination in Sadie’s account works really well. You can just imagine it - Sadie’s story becoming the latest True Crime special - and it honestly hurts to read. You want McCray to just move faster, work harder, care more about this poor girl from a disadvantaged background. Please save her was running through my mind the whole time. I felt a little panicked while reading, especially as Sadie becomes ever more reckless. It’s heartbreaking to see this girl who believes she has lost everything important in her world.It could be likened to any book with a badass female character on a mission, from The Female of the Species to True Grit, but really, it stands on its own. In the end, it feels like a book about all the ways Sadie is let down by the people who should have helped and protected her; all the ways poor young girls are let down by the people who should have helped and protected them. And still, despite it all, this is a Courtney Summers book, so even at her lowest, weakest moments, Sadie still has claws. The sad thing is that she ever had to use them.TW: Pedophilia; sexual abuse; drug abuse.Blog | Facebook | Twitter | Instagram | Youtube
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  • Em
    January 1, 1970
    Every now and then, I stumble upon a book that makes me wish to heap violence on my vocabulary, to wrench away words like “good” and “amazing” and excavate something more genuine, more raw, more appropriate to the experience of reading it.Sadie splintered in my heart, and I’m sure the author meant it to. I finished it, shivering with a chill inside me that nothing could possibly drive away. It’s been days and I still can’t swallow past the unaccountable lump in my throat. But I guess that’s just Every now and then, I stumble upon a book that makes me wish to heap violence on my vocabulary, to wrench away words like “good” and “amazing” and excavate something more genuine, more raw, more appropriate to the experience of reading it.Sadie splintered in my heart, and I’m sure the author meant it to. I finished it, shivering with a chill inside me that nothing could possibly drive away. It’s been days and I still can’t swallow past the unaccountable lump in my throat. But I guess that’s just it—all that is harder to read, proves much slower to heal. So, what's this book about? Nineteen-years-old Sadie has raised her little sister, thirteen-years-old Mattie, since she was born to Claire, their drug-addicted absent mother and a woman who belonged to them so little Sadie did not miss her. Sadie loved her sister something fierce that if you would swipe her heart searching for fingerprints, you’d find only Mattie’s. She had hung on so long by that single filament of purpose, and the moment she learned of Mattie’s murder, it snapped. Everything and everyone from then on has been lumped with the rest of the world as “not Mattie”, and Sadie’s grief, anger and hatred—as old as herself, and as pure as her love for her sister— lingered and ruled in her stead and prompted her to set out on a dangerous path to find her sister’s murderer…and kill him.Radio personality West McCray, enlisted by Sadie’s surrogate grandmother for help and goaded by his boss, starts a serialized podcast to track Sadie’s journey. McCray leans on the bits and pieces of Sadie’s story that are strewn all around him to learn, messily and gracelessly, the horrifying extent of what happened—truths and secrets that could never be shriven—and his desperation tapers down to a deep pit of need in his gut: find Sadie before it’s too late. “I can’t take another dead girl.” Sadie is, to be charitable, an uncomfortable book; but I entirely believe that it's meant to be discomfiting. It is haunting and creepy, a story of loss and lies and betrayal wrapped around a skeleton of heartache and grief. A tale of sisterly devotion that hasn’t tasted any real hope in so long and has been fed and nurtured on darker things—guilt and hurt and so much rage.We travel the pathways of Sadie’s life and shudder at the horrors there. Sadie has turned her heart out for the reader to examine the contents. Her voice is visceral, conveying her emotions with startling physicality. It was so deeply heartbreaking to see how much Sadie’s love for her sister inflects her narration, and that sense of marveling at what multitudes could come from one person remained with me throughout the entire book. My desolation deepened at the knowledge that each day, the crank will turn anew, and the gears of the world will lurch into motion but the broken edges of her little sister’s sundered name will not grow smooth with time; Sadie's guilt and grief were corrosive, and she was a husk.Reading this book felt as though I was clinging to the edge of reason by my fingertips, and the spinning world might at any given moment shake me off and hurl me. All I could feel was the approach, the closing-in, and the dread—a clinging, muttering dread, tenacious as cobwebs. My heart was wild with it, and with anguish too, and every new page was scraping a place already raw. I was feeling the story's urgency pull me deeper and deeper inside it and there was only horror as every new truth came clear to me. I genuinely wished that I could somehow form each new revelation into a different picture and disprove my dark suspicions.If you’ve read a Courtney Summers novel, you know that she never pulls her punches, condescends, softens it up or sugarcoats. She knows what teenagers are capable of and what her teenage readers can bear, and she brings both past the very edge of comfort; the result would be either short and abrupt as a firework, or long and spun-out, and you never knew which, the ending might be soft or brutal, and you never knew which.Sadie is a story that confronts you with the gruesome truth that the monsters we conceive in our imagination are not nearly as frightening as the monstrous acts perpetrated by ordinary human beings. That when there isn't even a wisp of humanity to grasp at, let alone a strand to hang on to and follow into the dark, you are only plucking at strings of conscience that will yield no sound.Sadie still keeps replaying itself over and over, relentless, so many questions coiling tightly in my mind, boiling down to one terrible conviction: I can’t take another dead girl, either.TW: pedophilia, child sexual abuse, parental neglect, mentions and descriptions of substance abuse.BLOG | TWITTER | INSTAGRAM | TUMBLR
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  • Kristin (KC) - Traveling Sister
    January 1, 1970
    *5 solid stars!*"I’m dangerous. You shouldn't underestimate people, I want to call out. I have a knife."SADIE has lost herself and she doesn't want to be found. Not by the few remaining people in her life, not even by life itself. She lets the reader know right away that she is being fueled only by revenge, and there is no question that Sadie is surviving for the sole purpose of killing the man she believes murdered her little sister. "I’m going to kill a man. I’m going to steal the light from *5 solid stars!*"I’m dangerous. You shouldn't underestimate people, I want to call out. I have a knife."SADIE has lost herself and she doesn't want to be found. Not by the few remaining people in her life, not even by life itself. She lets the reader know right away that she is being fueled only by revenge, and there is no question that Sadie is surviving for the sole purpose of killing the man she believes murdered her little sister. "I’m going to kill a man. I’m going to steal the light from his eyes. I want to watch it go out." This was a heinous crime whose victim has obtained no justice; a case gone cold, until Sadie herself goes missing and the host of a serialized podcast is persuaded to revive it. The podcast portions are handled extremely well and are delivered in chapters that alternate with the saturated darkness of Sadie’s first-person narrative. We get right in her head, and it is wholly intense at the very least. I would say that Sadie’s falling apart, but that would imply she’d once had it all together, and she has never. Not with an absentee father, and an addict of a mother. Not when she’d been forced to raise her younger sister as though she wasn't also just a child herself. Sadie has stripped away the outer layers of herself until all that remains is this primal, animalistic being whose desire to kill this man has become the only thing in life that matters. I could sense her wasting away, eating only because she has to and because not eating would steal the strength she needs to carry out her plan. You will feel Sadie’s desperation as it all but suffocates her. You will witness her becoming a machine—one who feels only pain, if she feels anything at all. Her eyes are focused, and she’s seeing red as she paves her own way through the road splayed out in front of her—god help anyone who tries to stand in her way. Courtney Summer’s writing continually impresses me, and frankly just keeps getting better. I’ve come to love the sharpened edges of her young adult stories, but this one in particular seems to break through the confines of YA altogether, targeting a much wider audience than teens. This plot is driven; a reckless drive, and it’s Sadie behind the wheel, the reader sitting shotgun alongside her. It’s brave and it’s raw and it feels so close to real that you may just have to remind yourself to come up for air at times. Sadie’s character, with all of her pain, is sharp and witty, and even funny at times. She speaks with a stutter, which only endeared me to her even more, and she’s easy to love even though she’s not intentionally casting out lovable vibes. Every element in the story came to life—all of it—and it wasn't pretty to look at, but it was powerful and it was important. A mother’s addiction. A sister’s reliance. A child abused. A daughter, so in need of her mother’s love that the lack of it has hollowed out her insides, leaving a hole that can only be filled with pain and uncertainty. "Sometimes I don’t know what I miss more; everything I’ve lost or everything I never had." This book is more than a story—it is a voice, and it begs to be heard. Book Stats: ▪  Genre/Category: Contemporary/Young Adult/Mystery▪  Characters: Sadie's character is sole focus of story. She's painfully broken and highly driven in her pursuit. ▪  Plot: Sadie sets out to kill the man she believes murdered her sister. ▪ Writing: Edgy, witty, brilliant! This author is a favorite of mine!▪ POV: 1st Person Perspective: Alternates between Sadie's POV and Podcast transcripts ▪  Cliffhanger: None. Standalone*Thanks to St. Martin’s Press for providing an advanced digital copy via Netgalley!*
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  • Deanna
    January 1, 1970
    My reviews can also be seen at: https://deesradreadsandreviews.wordpr...19 year old, Sadie and her younger sister, Mattie struggled to get by. Cold Creek is a small town with very few opportunities for employment. Many have to go to a neighboring town for work and school.Mary Beth Foster was Mattie and Sadie's neighbor and the manager of the trailer park where they lived. Mary Beth tried to look out for the sisters but basically, it was just the two of them. Their mother, Claire had been out of My reviews can also be seen at: https://deesradreadsandreviews.wordpr...19 year old, Sadie and her younger sister, Mattie struggled to get by. Cold Creek is a small town with very few opportunities for employment. Many have to go to a neighboring town for work and school.Mary Beth Foster was Mattie and Sadie's neighbor and the manager of the trailer park where they lived. Mary Beth tried to look out for the sisters but basically, it was just the two of them. Their mother, Claire had been out of the picture for quite a while. The bond between the sisters was very strong, but something horrific happens that severs that bond forever. Now Sadie is missing and Mary Beth Foster just wants to find someone who can help. Someone who will give a damn...West McCray is a radio personality who just happens to overhear a little bit of Sadie and Mattie’s story. At first, he thinks what many others seem to be thinking… “Girls run away all the time; girls go missing, there isn’t anything new here.” West and his producer have been talking about West hosting his own podcast. His producer is the one who suggests he dig a little deeper into Sadie's story. West doesn't really want to do it at first, but finds that he can't stop thinking about their story and ends up creating a serialized podcast called “The Girls” “when a devastating crime reveals a deeply unsettling mystery.” After working on the story for awhile, West starts to get nervous. He's scared of what he might find." If you want the truth, I didn't even want this story. And the more I have it, the less I want it because I don't think it's headed anywhere good. But I'm in this now, so I have to see it through." So where is Sadie? What or who is she looking for?I thought this was an incredible read. A fantastic and powerfully written story. I was addicted and hated having to put the book down.I thought the layout of the novel was interesting and the characters all very well developed. We get to hear from many people that knew Sadie and Mattie which was a great addition to the story. The story jumps back and forth between Sadie’s journey and “The Girls” podcast whose investigation retraces Sadie's steps. The novel deals with some tough subject matter, but I thought the author handled these issues with sensitivity and respect. I was hooked from start to finish."Sadie" is a compelling and riveting story about love, loss, revenge, and the power of a sister's love.I'd like to thank Wednesday Books for giving me the opportunity to read this book in exchange for my honest review.
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  • karen
    January 1, 1970
    NOW AVAILABLE!!!In our last episode, I introduced you to the two girls at the center of this podcast, Mattie Southern and Sadie Hunter. Mattie was murdered, her body left just outside her hometown of Cold Creek, Colorado. Sadie is missing, her car found, abandoned, thousands of miles away, with all her personal belongings still inside it. The girls’ surrogate grandmother, May Beth Foster, has enlisted my help in finding Sadie and bringing her home.For those of you just tuning in, this is a seria NOW AVAILABLE!!!In our last episode, I introduced you to the two girls at the center of this podcast, Mattie Southern and Sadie Hunter. Mattie was murdered, her body left just outside her hometown of Cold Creek, Colorado. Sadie is missing, her car found, abandoned, thousands of miles away, with all her personal belongings still inside it. The girls’ surrogate grandmother, May Beth Foster, has enlisted my help in finding Sadie and bringing her home.For those of you just tuning in, this is a serialized podcast, so if you haven’t listened to our first episode, you should do that now. We have more story than time to tell it - but I suppose that’s true for all of us.this book is such a ballpunch. i don’t even have balls, but i felt it - the sharp whitehot flashes of sudden impact; boof, boof, boof, followed by a deep nausea.courtney summers is gonna ballpunch all of you. this book’s got some things in common with The Female of the Species and Are You Sleeping, but it has a ferocity all its own, and as much as i loved the fierce energy of The Female of the Species, with its teengirl vigilantism and Hard Candy revenge-killings, Sadie is much darker and more realistic, which makes it much, much scarier. and if there are still any adults out there who think they are 'too grown' for YA books, think again, because although this is targeted at a teen audience, the quality of summers’ writing is better than many adult-market books i’ve read, and she doesn’t pull any of those punches - they hit and hit hard. there are two narrative voices: the rawnerve howl of nineteen-year-old sadie, on the trail of the man she believes killed her thirteen-year-old sister mattie, and west mccray - the creator of the podcast The Girls, whose contributions are mostly in the form of transcripts from that podcast, with all the rounded-edged detached professional compassion of an NPR host. sadie has zero rounded edges left. all she has is a car, a backpack, some cash, and a plan:”She’s dead,” I whisper and I don’t know why this is the thing I choose to say out loud because it hurts to say it, to feel the truth of those words pass my lips, to have them be real in this world. But She’s dead is the reason I’m still alive.She’s dead is the reason I’m going to kill a man.sadie dropped out of school at sixteen to raise her sister after their addict-mother left, both of their fathers long out of the picture, and she struggled for years to make ends meet with her truncated education and severe stutter in a small-town trailer park full of bad memories and no prospects for the future.For some people, the future ahead is opportunity. For others, it’s only time you haven’t met and where I lived, it was only time. You don’t waste your breath trying to protect it. You just try to survive it until one day, you don’t.what she did have was her devotion to mattie, and with mattie gone, she’s got nothing left to lose and she’s a mama-bear incandescent with vengeance. i'll say no more, but oh, man, this is a powerhouse of a book. it'll getcha.***************************************might bump this up to five stars - gotta let it all settle. review to come, but in short: magnificent.***************************************it's here!***************************************Congratulations karen!You are one of our Giveaways lucky winners! YYYEEEAAAAHHHHH!! come to my blog!
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  • Meredith
    January 1, 1970
    “I’m going to kill the man who killed my sister.” Sadie is a stunning, heartbreaking read about a girl dead set on murdering the man who killed her little sister. 19-year-old Sadie only had one thing her life to love, which was her 13-year-old little sister, Mattie. Growing up in a trailer park in Colorado, she had to endure her mother’s drug abuse, neglect, and many boyfriends; some of whom were verbally, physically, and sexually abusive. But Sadie survived in order to protect Mattie. Sadly wh “I’m going to kill the man who killed my sister.” Sadie is a stunning, heartbreaking read about a girl dead set on murdering the man who killed her little sister. 19-year-old Sadie only had one thing her life to love, which was her 13-year-old little sister, Mattie. Growing up in a trailer park in Colorado, she had to endure her mother’s drug abuse, neglect, and many boyfriends; some of whom were verbally, physically, and sexually abusive. But Sadie survived in order to protect Mattie. Sadly when Mattie is murdered, Sadie is intent on seeking revenge on the man who killed Mattie.Sadie is a sharp, intelligent, edgy character. There’s nothing smooth about her and wherever she goes, she leaves a mark. That’s why when an investigation begins into her disappearance, those who met Sadie cannot forget their encounters with her. Sadie’s story is split between Sadie’s narrative and a podcast about her disappearance. While this could have felt gimmicky, the split between the two narratives is handled with finesse. The podcast provides a different insight into Sadie’s character, and the juxtaposition between the two is fascinating. This is not a pretty read. Sadie’s raw pain emanates from the pages. There were times when I had to set this book aside because I couldn't endure reading any more of her story. I was constantly worried about her and wanted to jump into this book and rescue her on many occasions. This was a jarring and sometimes uncomfortable read. However, it was extremely impactful. Summer’s brings Sadie’s character to life, and while this wasn’t always enjoyable to read, her style is enthralling. I was captivated by Sadie’s voice; she got under my skin and shattered my heart. I highly recommend Sadie and this is by far one of my favorite reads of 2018. Triggers: rape, pedophilia, violenceI received an ARC of Sadie from NetGalley and St. Martin’s Press in exchange for an honest review.
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  • Chelsea Humphrey
    January 1, 1970
    Happy Pub Day!!!"I'm going to kill a man. I'm going to steal the light from his eyes. I want to watch it go out. You aren't supposed to answer violence with more violence but sometimes I think violence is the only answer."Reading Sadie was the perfect example of why sometimes, the timing of picking up a book can make or break your experience. I tried to pick this one up months ago when I first received it and only made it about 25 pages before I had to place it to the side. I had some heavy stuf Happy Pub Day!!!"I'm going to kill a man. I'm going to steal the light from his eyes. I want to watch it go out. You aren't supposed to answer violence with more violence but sometimes I think violence is the only answer."Reading Sadie was the perfect example of why sometimes, the timing of picking up a book can make or break your experience. I tried to pick this one up months ago when I first received it and only made it about 25 pages before I had to place it to the side. I had some heavy stuff going on in my personal life, and I think a book of this calibre wasn't helping me to escape in the form that I needed at the moment. Fast forward to this week and I decided, at the recommendation of many bookstagram friends, to pick this one up again for my readathon. That choice ended up being one of the best decisions I made, as I connected so well to Sadie this go around. All this to say, if you're in a heavy or emotional place in your life right now, you may want to hold off until the opportune moment to pick this one up. If you're looking for a unique novel that is a mature form of YA, this is it. The story is well written, gripping, and emotional, and the podcast format that is becoming so popular amongst authors and readers alike is a slam dunk here. I've heard also that Macmillan is releasing an actual podcast that coincides with the novel every Tuesday/Wednesday ish, and I plan on checking this out in greater detail over the weekend. Sadie, the novel, was an atmospheric read, and its claustrophobic nature had me tugging at the collar of my shirt by the end of the book to try and relieve the pressure that was building from my throat to my stomach. The pacing starts out very slowly, and builds momentum along with the tension that grows as our hearts become chained to Sadie's. It's a tough read guys. I know I've said that about three times now, but I can't stress enough how heavy, yet timely this book is. If you're looking for a happily ever after, a story of redemption, or even just a book that will allow you to sleep again at night once you've finished it, you won't find that here. Without giving away any spoilers, you can expect some questions to be answered, but to be wrestling with the remainder for weeks to come after turning that final page. The alternating between podcast episodes and Sadie's own voice really worked well here, and toward the end there's a switch that just about crippled me once I realized what was being done. While not for the sensitive reader (CW for child abuse, pedophilia, rape, drug and alcohol abuse by minors and adults, graphic violence, etc.), I have to admit that this is a book that many people can learn from, both teens and adults alike. I have a sinking sensation that I'll be grappling with the effects of this book for months to come in my everyday life-when I'm in the shower or driving down the road-and I'll be reminded to hold my daughters a little more closely, because there are so many little girls out there who live a much different life than my babies do, and it's just not fair. Book #1 in my August #25infive readathon.Thank you Goodreads Giveaways for my review copy!
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  • Courtney
    January 1, 1970
    Did you hear the first episode of THE GIRLS podcast? It's AMAZING. Catch up before episode 2 drops next Wednesday (8/8). Find it on your favorite podcacst platforms--Apple Podcasts, Stitcher, Google Podcasts, Spotify, etc, hit subscribe and if you like what you heard, rate & review! https://us.macmillan.com/podcasts/pod...Then join in on the discussion post on my Instagram!https://www.instagram.com/p/Bl8P1zDF9...I'm so completely thrilled to announce THE GIRLS, an original (fake) true crime Did you hear the first episode of THE GIRLS podcast? It's AMAZING. Catch up before episode 2 drops next Wednesday (8/8). Find it on your favorite podcacst platforms--Apple Podcasts, Stitcher, Google Podcasts, Spotify, etc, hit subscribe and if you like what you heard, rate & review! https://us.macmillan.com/podcasts/pod...Then join in on the discussion post on my Instagram!https://www.instagram.com/p/Bl8P1zDF9...I'm so completely thrilled to announce THE GIRLS, an original (fake) true crime podcast series based on Sadie, created by the wonderful and talented Macmillan Podcasts and Macmillan Audio teams! Visit http://bit.ly/SadiePodcast to subscribe for free on Apple Podcasts, where you can listen to a teaser now and the first episode when it goes live on 8/1! More info here: https://us.macmillan.com/podcasts/pod...THE GIRLS features a fully casted audio experience that will immerse you in journalist West McCray's investigation into what happened to Sadie after she disappears following the brutal murder of her little sister. It was completely and wonderfully overwhelming to hear my characters come alive and I'm looking forward to following them in weekly installments leading up to the book's release and I hope you will too--there's going to be some exciting bonus content as well! And if you're game, please consider supporting the podcast and the book by rating it on Apple Podcasts and sharing this with anyone you think would be interested!Sadie has been an incredible journey so far--one I can't always wrap my head around--and it's meant a lot to me to be able to share it with you. I hope you enjoy the podcast as much as the Macmillan Podcasts and Macmillan Audio teams enjoyed making it for you. My thanks to them and to Macmillan and Wednesday Books for making this magic happen--and to YOU for being here every step of the way and tuning in! Seriously! Check out that teaser trailer! It's amazing.!!!!!-Some exciting Sadie news . . . I'll be launching Sadie's release at McNally Jackson Books on September 5th at their Prince St. location in New York with my amazing editor Sara Goodman! I've had the privilege of being part of an event there before but would you believe this is the first ever launch I've done for a book of my own? Help make it one to remember by joining us and getting a copy of Sadie signed! Can't make it but still want a signed personalized copy of the book? You can--and I hope will!--preorder one at the store's website. Event details: https://www.mcnallyjackson.com/event/...Preorder a signed copy of Sadie: https://www.mcnallyjackson.com/produc...Sadie has received its 2nd starred review from Kirkus, who called it, "A riveting tour de force."I'm thrilled to share Sadie has received some incredible blurbs from authors I greatly admire. Check 'em out:"An electrifying thriller, taut as a bowstring. A coming-of-age tale, both gritty and sensitive. A poignant drama of love and loss. This--all this--is Sadie: a novel for readers of any age, and a character as indelible as a scar. Flat-out dazzling."— A.J. Finn, #1 New York Times bestselling author of The Woman in the Window"Sadie is an electrifying, high-stakes road trip--a gripping thriller with a true-crime podcast edge. Clear your schedule. You're not going anywhere until you've reached the end."— Stephanie Perkins, New York Times bestselling author of There's Someone Inside Your House"A haunting, gut-wrenching, and relentlessly compelling read. Sadie grabs you and won't let you go until you've borne witness."— Veronica Roth, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Carve the MarkAnd don't forget! Sadie is now available for request on NetGalley! . . . If you're brave enough: https://www.netgalley.com/catalog/boo...***I'm thrilled to share Sadie is a BookExpo America Editors' Buzz Pick in the YA category! You can check out the press release here. Congrats to my fellow picks! https://www.publishersweekly.com/pw/b...***September 4th, 2018: #findsadieAnd read the first chapter NOW on Bustle: https://www.bustle.com/p/sadie-by-cou...Check out what people are saying and preorder your copy today:http://courtneysummers.ca/novels/sadie/I am so excited for you guys to read this one. I'm so grateful I get to share it with you. ❤
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  • Lola
    January 1, 1970
    Sadie’s sister—the light of her life—was taken from her, murdered. Now, Sadie is out for blood. She’s going to find Mattie’s murderer, whatever the cost. She won’t stop at anything until she holds the heart of the bastard who destroyed Sadie’s reason to live in her hands and plunges a knife right into it. I loved Sadie.This may seem like a shocking statement, but Sadie is a good person. She may have dark thoughts and an even darker past, but deep down she is a human being who suffers 24/7. She d Sadie’s sister—the light of her life—was taken from her, murdered. Now, Sadie is out for blood. She’s going to find Mattie’s murderer, whatever the cost. She won’t stop at anything until she holds the heart of the bastard who destroyed Sadie’s reason to live in her hands and plunges a knife right into it. I loved Sadie.This may seem like a shocking statement, but Sadie is a good person. She may have dark thoughts and an even darker past, but deep down she is a human being who suffers 24/7. She didn’t ask to be abused. She didn’t ask to grow up faster than imaginable. Courtney Summers is an author who isn’t afraid to tackle heavy issues. She’s a hit or miss—BECAUSE of how audacious she is—but there isn’t a book from her that left me completely or partly indifferent. She’s not someone I can shrug off. Her words reach the deepest parts of me.It’s terrifying. Reading her, that is. I can never know if I’m going to cry, feel helpless, scared or overjoyed. I wouldn’t bet on the last one if I were you. Chances are, when I finish one of her books, I will slowly go to a quiet corner of my room, drop on my knees, and let all the salty water fall from my eyes.The only part of this book that made me narrow my eyes in incomprehension was the ending. I’m not exactly *surprised* the author did this to us, and part of me—the reasonable one—wants to argue that it’s a realistic last chapter, but I am not satisfied. I like concrete answers. Too much in a human being’s life is unsure, so I am expecting book endings to at least give me what I want.But that’s not a reason not to pick up this book, especially since it deserves to be read and Sadie will feel as realistic to you as the—what’s deeply twisted?—Twizzlers you just ate. Blog | Youtube | Twitter | Instagram | Google+ | Bloglovin’
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  • Kai
    January 1, 1970
    "Imagine having to live every day knowing the person who killed your sister is breathing the air she can't, filling his lungs with it, tasting its sweetness. Imagine him knowing the steady weight of the earth under his feet while her body is buried six feet below it."Sadie was everything I wished for and so much forking more.I always try to keep my expectations low, especially if it’s a debut author, an overhyped book or a book by an author that I’ve never read before. If I do not keep my expect "Imagine having to live every day knowing the person who killed your sister is breathing the air she can't, filling his lungs with it, tasting its sweetness. Imagine him knowing the steady weight of the earth under his feet while her body is buried six feet below it."Sadie was everything I wished for and so much forking more.I always try to keep my expectations low, especially if it’s a debut author, an overhyped book or a book by an author that I’ve never read before. If I do not keep my expectations in check, they will get out of control, like children running towards a playground, screaming from excitement. And then they realise the swings and everything else has been burned down. Yeah. I don’t want my expectations burned to the ground. I don’t want any crying children. Sadie, however, added a swimming pool, a bouncy castle and a super cool cave to the playground. But don’t kid yourself, this book is so not funny. I actually want to join the crying children, that’s how forking depressing it was. Aaand this metaphor officially got out of hands, but you know what I mean.I honestly cannot find anything to criticise. And I’m nitpicky, believe me. So if you want my word for it, just go and read the book now, because from here on this review will stop being spoiler-free.The characters are fantastic. Sadie is absolutely relatable. She is a caring, protective woman who will fight with everything she’s got for the people she loves. Her life is far from easy; many would go so far and say that it sucks big time. But she has her sister, Mattie, and that’s a life worth living.When Mattie is found dead, Sadie’s world shatters to pieces. But she knows who killed her and she will find a way to take revenge for every injustice that has been done to her sister – and to herself. Sadie disappears. And here, Wes McCray joins the game.West McCray is a journalist who stumbles upon the story of a girl found dead and a second girl reported missing. His side of the story is told in form of a podcast titled The Girls. On his journey to find Sadie he interviews a great number of people and reports all his findings to his listeners. The combination of these two narratives – Sadie’s point of view and Wes’ podcast – was so intriguing that I could not close the book. That and the excruciating cliffhangers at the end of every chapter nearly killed me. And killed one or the other fictional character in the process.I will shove this book under every person’s nose who will tell me All the Ugly and Wonderful Things is suuuuch a good book. Sadie is the anti-christ toAll the Ugly and Wonderful Things. Or rather, the Harry to his Voldemort.If you have not already realised it yourself, adult men who have sex with children and teenagers are very forking bad and the devil incarnate. And Sadie has come to end them. This book is basically young adult Kill Bill.I appreciated that the author managed to not shy away from the grim reality of sexual abuse while staying away from painting a too vivid and explicit picture of the horrible crimes at the same time. It left enough room for your imagination to fill the gaps and protected the reader – especially younger ones – from possible nightmares.Also, let’s talk about sexuality. We’re finally at this stage (at least in YA literature) where a character’s sexuality doesn’t define their plot. It’s a part of them that is no longer discussed, like the fact that someone’s favourite colour is blue. I know it sounds stupid to point this out, but it made me so happy. Every time in this novel when a character’s sexuality was brought up, it lacked a positive/negative/surprised reaction because PEOPLE ARE GAY KAREN GET OVER IT. No, really, it made me seriously happy.Sadie was one of my favourite reads of 2018 and I hope it will get super famous so that I can talk to people about it.Find more of my books on Instagram
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  • destiny ☠ howling libraries
    January 1, 1970
    At the time I’m writing this review, it’s been a couple of days since I finished Sadie, and I still haven’t fully processed it. This is one of those stories that seeps into your bones somewhere along the way, and it changes the way you look at the world a little. It is the best mystery—and one of the best books, period—that I have ever read, and it is also one of the bleakest, most devastating reading experiences of my life. And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl. You know, going At the time I’m writing this review, it’s been a couple of days since I finished Sadie, and I still haven’t fully processed it. This is one of those stories that seeps into your bones somewhere along the way, and it changes the way you look at the world a little. It is the best mystery—and one of the best books, period—that I have ever read, and it is also one of the bleakest, most devastating reading experiences of my life. And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl. You know, going into this story, that Sadie’s little sister’s body has just been found, and Sadie is on a mission to track down the man she believes is responsible. Besides the fact that it’s a story partially told through podcast episodes (which is such an incredible touch), that’s all you really need to know. This isn’t about what happens so much as it is about coming to know and love Sadie—and to know and love Mattie, too, through her memories. It’s about recognizing that the society we live in has this terrifying, grimy layer that nobody wants to talk about, where little girls are never really safe, and children are forced to grow up way too fast, to become adults in replacement of the parents they didn’t ask for. Imagine having to live every day knowing the person who killed your sister is breathing the air she can’t, filling his lungs with it, tasting its sweetness. Imagine him knowing the steady weight of the earth under his feet while her body is buried six feet below it. With a mother suffering from addiction, a community that looked the other way far too many times, and a life of barely keeping food on the table, much less having any real opportunities to succeed, Sadie feels like such an old soul. I don’t know how many readers will struggle to relate to the age of her inner monologue, but from another woman whose circumstances never quite allowed me to feel like a child, I saw so much of myself in the cynical, pragmatic way Sadie views the world around her. I realized pretty early on that the who didn’t really matter so much. That anybody who listens to me, I end up loving them just a little. It’s hard enough to grow up poor and in a broken family, but Sadie’s also queer—she doesn’t label herself, but explains her sexuality in ways that heavily point to pansexuality—and she stutters, which forms a barricade between her and the rest of the world. Her representation feels so valid and genuine, and it broke my heart every time she mused about how imprisoned she felt by her struggles with speech. I’d do it all again and again for eternity if I had to. I don’t know why that’s not enough to bring her back. More than anything else about Sadie’s character, though, I loved the fierce, maternal determination she has for taking care of Mattie—and, once Mattie is gone, for finding her killer and dishing out justice. Every memory of Mattie, whether told through her view of their adopted grandmother May Beth’s, is beautiful and haunting. The tremendous amount of guilt that Sadie carries as she blames herself for what went wrong had me completely breaking down in passages, and I’ll admit without shame that I read the last several chapters through tears. The most brutal part of it all is that, somehow, it feels like Sadie’s story could be based on a real girl—no, on countless real girls, all over the world. I have never been kissed the way I want to be kissed and I have never been touched the way I want to be touched. Without spoiling the plot, I want to warn you that this book focuses heavily on child abuse and sexual assault, and it is broken down in the most honest, agonizing ways. There’s also a solid portrayal of how deceptive abusers can be, as the abusers in question are shown to have fooled so many people. But there’s also another side to the representation here, as we see Sadie’s intense solidarity with other abused girls, and her desperate need to protect and defend them, even though (perhaps especially though) she feels that she failed to protect and defend her sister. It’s about the lengths we go to protect the ones we love… and the high price we pay when we can’t. There’s not much else I can tell you now, because I think it’s the kind of story that you should go into without too many expectations. Just climb in, let Sadie take you for a ride and tell you her story, and try not to let your heart get too broken in the process. This is a phenomenal story, and I know that I will be thinking about it for a long, long time to come.Content warnings for child abuse, sexual assault, drug addiction, addiction-shaming, PTSD, violence, child abduction, child deathAll quotes come from an advance copy and may not match the final release. Thank you so much to Wednesday Books for providing me with this ARC in exchange for an honest review!You can find this review and more on my blog, or you can follow me on twitter, bookstagram, or facebook!
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  • Debra
    January 1, 1970
    "It's sad when people don't realize their worth."WOW! Reading this book is like being sucker punched by sadness.Sadie has lived a sad life. She is frequently teased for her stutter. She has no idea who her father is. Her Mother is an addict who had a bevy of boyfriends rotating in and out of their lives. Some of which are happy to ignore Sadie and her younger sister, Mattie. Unfortunately, there was one boyfriend who gave way too much attention. Sadie has basically raised not only herself, but h "It's sad when people don't realize their worth."WOW! Reading this book is like being sucker punched by sadness.Sadie has lived a sad life. She is frequently teased for her stutter. She has no idea who her father is. Her Mother is an addict who had a bevy of boyfriends rotating in and out of their lives. Some of which are happy to ignore Sadie and her younger sister, Mattie. Unfortunately, there was one boyfriend who gave way too much attention. Sadie has basically raised not only herself, but her younger sister as well. Be warned - this is not a happy go lucky book. Its deals with heavy subjects such as neglect, sexual abuse, drug use, murder, revenge, etc. It's not an easy read and yet it is beautiful at the same time. Summers has created a heart wrenching and heartbreaking book about a young woman and her quest for revenge. The person she loved most has been murdered and Sadie lets the reader know early on what her motivations are - to avenge her sister's murder.The story is told through podcasts and Sadie's narrative. West McCray, a radio personality, becomes obsessed in learning about Sadie's story. Her car has been found abandoned and he is on a mission to find out what happened, why she left, and ultimately hopes to find her before it's too late. The reader is also shown Sadie's perspective and her journey attempting to track down the man who killed her sister.This book is extremely well written. It is also extremely gritty and shows the ugly side of life. Sadie is a powerful character who is hard to forget. She's smart, edgy and yet consumed by grief. Her pain is palpable. Her desperation leaps off the page and it is easy to become absorbed in this book. I found this to be an emotional read. The entire book I wanted to give Sadie a hug and hoped for the best all the while dreading where her path was taking her. This book will have triggers for some. This gripping tale is sad and haunting. It is one that will stay with the reader long after the last page has turned. I have not read this Author before and found her writing to be powerful and eloquent. I will be reading more books by this Author. I highly recommend this book!Thank you to St. Martin's Press and NetGalley who provided me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All the thoughts and opinions in this review are my own.Read more of my reviews at www.openbookpost.com
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  • Jennifer ~ TarHeelReader
    January 1, 1970
    An easy 5 stars to Sadie. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Don’t miss her story. I’m sure you’ve seen this book around the blogosphere or Goodreads, and more than likely you’ve noticed the praise showered upon it. All absolutely, positively well-deserved. Please read on and let me introduce you to Sadie, an unforgettable, tenderly drawn character.Sadie’s dad has never been around, and her mom walked out and left her as a teen to raise her younger sister, Mattie. They live in a deserted town in a trailer park where an An easy 5 stars to Sadie. ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ Don’t miss her story. I’m sure you’ve seen this book around the blogosphere or Goodreads, and more than likely you’ve noticed the praise showered upon it. All absolutely, positively well-deserved. Please read on and let me introduce you to Sadie, an unforgettable, tenderly drawn character.Sadie’s dad has never been around, and her mom walked out and left her as a teen to raise her younger sister, Mattie. They live in a deserted town in a trailer park where an elderly neighbor tries her best to look in on them but can only do so much. One day Mattie is found dead, and Sadie understandably falls apart. But not for long because she finds herself buying a car to go cross country in search of her sister’s killer. She has just a few clues in her arsenal, but she is on his trail. The story is told from Sadie’s perspective alternating with West McCray, a radio host recording a podcast while he tries to track Sadie down. Will West catch up to Sadie before something happens to her?Sadie will absolutely break your heart. But don’t let that stop you from reading her story because she is someone everyone should get to know. So pure of heart, vulnerable and yet tough as nails, steadfast and wily. She is completely relatable and endearing in that intense vulnerability. She carries a piece of all of us in her character. Sadie’s story is vivid and multi-dimensional. You will imagine the podcast is real and that Sadie is out there searching for Mattie, while West is searching for her. I know I did. I wish we could heal all the Sadies of the world so that the generational pain families inflict on one another could have less of a chance of being passed on. Everything about this story is brave, confrontational, brutal, ethereal, and breathtaking. I feel like I saw Sadie’s actual heart on those pages. Thank you to Wednesday Books/St. Martin’s Press for the complimentary ARC. All opinions are my own. My reviews can also be found on my blog: www.jennifertarheelreader.com
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  • chandler ainsley ❁
    January 1, 1970
    top 5 best book I’ve ever readnotice I didn’t say favorite book. it’s hard to call a book a favorite when it’s so gripping but so profoundly disturbing.I rarely read blurbs for books all the way through and I’m so glad I knew little about this going in. I do think everyone needs to know that pedophilia and sexual assault are present. I’m also not in favor of age based censorship but I do think YA aged readers should be aware that this is not graphic but disturbing.All of that being said this is top 5 best book I’ve ever readnotice I didn’t say favorite book. it’s hard to call a book a favorite when it’s so gripping but so profoundly disturbing.I rarely read blurbs for books all the way through and I’m so glad I knew little about this going in. I do think everyone needs to know that pedophilia and sexual assault are present. I’m also not in favor of age based censorship but I do think YA aged readers should be aware that this is not graphic but disturbing.All of that being said this is told in alternating POV: you’ve got a true crime style podcast documenting events and then Sadie narrating alongside it. It’s so surreal and effective and by the 60% mark my stomach was in knots hoping that the podcast would catch up to Sadie and help her before something bad happened. The story is about sisterhood, responsibility placed on children too young, revenge, hope, so many things. I don’t want to go too much into it because going in blind is best. But if even the first sentence of the blurb intrigued you, pick this up. If you love true crime, pick it up. If you have a sister, pick this fucking book up.This arc was generously provided via Netgalley by St. Martins, but I’ll be picking up a finished copy once it comes out if that tells you anything 😛
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  • Kendall
    January 1, 1970
    Happy Pub day to this epic piece of literature!!! Go get your hands on it! <3. Sadie by Courtney Summers is a brilliant YA novel that absolutely stole my heart and is EVERYTHING! Courtney knocked my socks off with this novel and I am so impressed with how touching and beautiful her writing is.I was left haunted by this novel and will always remember this story... truly inspiring and so so brilliant!Let's meet Sadie... her little sister Mattie who is Sadie's world has been taken from her in th Happy Pub day to this epic piece of literature!!! Go get your hands on it! <3. Sadie by Courtney Summers is a brilliant YA novel that absolutely stole my heart and is EVERYTHING! Courtney knocked my socks off with this novel and I am so impressed with how touching and beautiful her writing is.I was left haunted by this novel and will always remember this story... truly inspiring and so so brilliant!Let's meet Sadie... her little sister Mattie who is Sadie's world has been taken from her in the worst possible way of being murdered. Bets off ladies and gentleman..... Sadie is out for blood for blood. She is going to find Mattie's murderer and nothing will STAND in her way. I LOVE Sadie! Characterization is on point to the TEE. I was so addicted to every single character in this book and did not want this book to end. I cried a little at the end.. because it was over. NOW THAT truly means this was a fantastic book. After finishing the final page to this book... Courtney you truly have left my soul with an imprint on my heart. Readers... be prepared for her words to bring out the deepest parts of you. You will feel in so many ways you never thought possible. I cannot recommend this book enough. "Sometimes I don't know what I miss more; everything I've lost or everything I never had." Let me leave you with this..."But love is complicated, it's messy. It can inspire selflessness, selfishness, our greatest accomplishments and our hardest mistakes. It brings us together and it can just as easily drive us apart. It can drive us."5 brilliant stars! Easily one of my top 2018 reads!! <3. Thank you so much to St. Martin's Press and Netgalley for the opportunity to read this in exchange for my honest review.Publication date: 9/4/18Published to GR: 6/18/18
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  • Nenia ✨ Queen of Literary Trash, Protector of Out-of-Print Gems, Khaleesi of Bodice Rippers, Mother of Smut, the Unrepentant, Breaker of Convention ✨ Campbell
    January 1, 1970
    Instagram || Twitter || Facebook || Amazon || PinterestOne of the things that infuriates me - infuriates me - about violent crimes against women is that each time one of these articles gets out, dudes (yes, yes, #notalldudes) act totally shocked, like this sort of thing has never happened in the history of ever and it's the first time they've ever heard of it. "What do you mean rape?" they squawk, clutching their man-pearls like scandalized aunts. "That's a thing? Who would do that? You're sayi Instagram || Twitter || Facebook || Amazon || PinterestOne of the things that infuriates me - infuriates me - about violent crimes against women is that each time one of these articles gets out, dudes (yes, yes, #notalldudes) act totally shocked, like this sort of thing has never happened in the history of ever and it's the first time they've ever heard of it. "What do you mean rape?" they squawk, clutching their man-pearls like scandalized aunts. "That's a thing? Who would do that? You're saying people abuse young girls? Children? Wow, I would never do that. As a heterosexual white guy, I can't even imagine  such a sick individual... I mean, I had someone look at me funny on the bus once but this is definitely ten times worse. ANYWAY, let's see what's on the sports channel." Wash, rinse, repeat.Don't even get me started on the straight white guys who seem to feel its their duty to tell this story, usually from the lens of a concerned father ("As the father of a teen girl, I feel sickened by the thought of someone doing this to my innocent princess") or the condemning judge ("Well, she was known to drink sometimes at parties and met this athlete (who scored the fourth down touchdown pass at the last home game, incidentally) at a party, so I imagine alcohol was involved, and frankly, women are known to exaggerate, so what's all the fuss?"). Either nobody cares unless a straight white guy tells the story, or a straight white guy does his damnedest to help cover the story up. In either case, the woman - the victim - is omitted from the narrative.So it's fitting, then, that SADIE is told in a split narrative, one from the concerned white guy who is a father (although he's not straight), the other from the victim herself, in her own words. Sadie is one of those girls who, when they disappear, nobody is shocked. Her mother is a drug addict and the only father figures have been a revolving door of men, some worse than others. She has a stutter. She has no money, no privilege, nothing except her younger sister, who turns up dead one day. Shortly after her sister's death, Sadie herself goes missing, and we are privy to her odyssey as helpful radio personality (and father of a daughter himself), West McCray, fills us in on the aftermath.You really can't know too much about this book without having all the crucial details spoiled for you, but it's basically a girl on the hunt for her younger sister's killer while trying to exorcise some of her own dark and personal demons. It's a short read and goes by at a breakneck pace, because man, if you're not invested in the beginning, you will be by the end. I was desperate to see what happened to the two girls, and that ending - WITHOUT SPOILING ANYTHING - made me want to hurl my laptop out of the nearest window, because it was so unsatisfying to me, personally. It's not for the reason you think (again, I'm not spoiling anything - this is not about the HEA or lack thereof). It's about all the dudes out there, who co-opt these stories of violence against women and either make it about them or use it as a cautionary tale against women who don't follow the rules, or else trivialize it into some bite-sized sensationalism with a cheeky, "tune in next week to find out" attitude.Sexism is happening, and sometimes it's sickening, violent. But sometimes, it's much more subtle.Thanks to Netgalley/the publisher for the review copy! 4 stars
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  • Elise (TheBookishActress)
    January 1, 1970
    this was one of the most brutal and sickening and beautifully written books I have ever read, and I am so impressed by itreview to come!!
  • C.G. Drews
    January 1, 1970
    I feel utterly shaken right now. 0_0 This book is intense and really dark and the ending kind of had me like, "mY KINDLE IS BROKEN I NEED ANOTHER CHAPTER." Which I both love and hate. (Curse you, book.) Seriously though, it's the kind of book you end up forgetting how to breathe while you read it and it is so so well written. It feels weird saying "I enjoyed this!" because it's NOT an enjoyable story. It's raw and emotional and shows such a darkly vicious side of the world. It's addictive becaus I feel utterly shaken right now. 0_0 This book is intense and really dark and the ending kind of had me like, "mY KINDLE IS BROKEN I NEED ANOTHER CHAPTER." Which I both love and hate. (Curse you, book.) Seriously though, it's the kind of book you end up forgetting how to breathe while you read it and it is so so well written. It feels weird saying "I enjoyed this!" because it's NOT an enjoyable story. It's raw and emotional and shows such a darkly vicious side of the world. It's addictive because you want to unravel this mystery of a missing girl and her murdered sister, but you also, as you keep reading, get this absolute sick feeling about what's really going on. I do believe it's best to go in knowing only a little about it! It's a mystery and like those are best served without too many details up front right?! But basically it's half told as a podcast series by a middle-age man -- and also half told in a really raw and aching 1st person narrative by Sadie herself. You get to see this podcaster unravelling the mystery of who Sadie talked to as she went searching for this man named "Darren". And you get to flip over and SEE Sadie following her journey towards to take down darkness with a switchblade.Honestly it makes me want to cry. It is a really heavy story (upper YA for sure) and reminded me of Girl in Pieces too. Also it's very much about being poor, about people risking everything, about this intensely tight love for your sister, about neglect and abuse and trauma. It's a really important story too and gah, I wish it was fiction, but it's a story you could also hear on the news.And Sadie?! I LOVE HER. She is one of the most dimensional and loveable characters ever, despite the fact that she doesn't seem loveable, I just ahhhh broke for her. She'd do anything for her sister, basically raised her, and she has this stutter and has to deal with all the discrimination for it. Also I absolutely choose to believe (view spoiler)[she is alive and ok at the end of this bookkkkk gahhhhh. (hide spoiler)].Basically? READ THIS. I still am just afdsakld all over the place it was so intense and heartbreaking.
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  • Chelsea (chelseadolling reads)
    January 1, 1970
    I finished this a few days ago but I’ve been putting off writing this review because I still don’t know how to accurately put my feelings about it into words. This book was hard. So fucking hard to read, but SO DAMN GOOD. If you think you can handle the subject matter I highly recommend. TW: pedophilia, rape, murder
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  • shady boots | #WatchPOSE
    January 1, 1970
    Thank you to NetGalley and Wednesday Books for sending me an ARC of this book.Trigger Warning: Pedophilia, sexual abuseI should probably preface this by saying that this is a book that is unforgivingly dark and bleak, and those of you who are about to read it should keep this in mind before you start. It will pull no punches, and even when you finish it, you will not have any peace of mind. You will be left haunted by it, as I currently am right now and will most likely be for a while.Courtney S Thank you to NetGalley and Wednesday Books for sending me an ARC of this book.Trigger Warning: Pedophilia, sexual abuseI should probably preface this by saying that this is a book that is unforgivingly dark and bleak, and those of you who are about to read it should keep this in mind before you start. It will pull no punches, and even when you finish it, you will not have any peace of mind. You will be left haunted by it, as I currently am right now and will most likely be for a while.Courtney Summers' name being attached to any project has me a hundred percent on board, no questions asked. I've always been awed by her work, namely the zombie thriller This is Not a Test and the brutally realistic All the Rage. These two books in particular are part of my all time favorite YA novels. So you could imagine my elation when my NetGalley request was accepted. I didn't waste any time starting.The book is told in a unique way, alternating between chapters from Sadie's point of view, detailing her quest to seek vengeance for her little sister, and also transcripts from the radio show called The Girls, hosted by a man named West McCray (sidebar, he's gay—this doesn't have any relevance or bearing to the story, I just appreciated the fact) who is desperate to find Sadie and figure out what happened to her.I can get technical and review this the way a professional would, but you know that's not how I roll. I review books by talking about how they made me feel, so that's what I'm going to do.The misconception I had, and I'm sure most people will have, about this book is I went into it thinking this will be a story about hatred and revenge. And in some ways, it's true. Sadie's hatred for the person who ruined her life and her desire to kill him is what drives the story initially. You want to root for her as she follows trail after trail, you want her to find this disgusting man and rip him apart and find some satisfaction in that.But as I finished reading, somewhat struggling to see the text on the screen due to the blurriness of my eyes welling up with tears, I realized how wrong I was. This book is about love.Here is Sadie, a young girl who has lost everything and went through awful, unforgivable things in her childhood, had a mother who neglected and abandoned her. All the love and light left in her life was her little sister Mattie, and someone brutally took her away too. But even once Mattie died, Sadie's love for her never did. Sadie's unwavering, unconditional devotion to her sister drove her to seek vengeance. It was the only thing that kept her going because she had nothing left.That was the biggest takeaway I got from this book in the end. Of course there are other things too; the reality that monsters are everywhere and they take human form. That you should always be careful who you let into your life. That someone you think you know well could most likely be a complete stranger. But I truly feel that the essence of this book lies in the love that Sadie has for her sister, and that's why it's so powerful. I know that the "Power of Love" trope is one of the most overused and cliched tropes in history, but I think that's because in a lot of those movies/books/etc, love saves the day. Of course love doesn't save the day in this story, because the worst has already happened. But it still proves how powerful love is because, to quote from this book, it can be the thing that drives us. I am so glad I got to read this. It's definitely one of the most moving, heart-wrenching stories I've read this year, and will probably stay on my mind for a long time.
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  • may ❀
    January 1, 1970
    OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD MY QUEEN IS COMING WITH A NEW BOOK AND IM NOT READY IM NOT READY IM NOT READY OH MY GOODNESS SOMEONE HOLD ME
  • Felicia
    January 1, 1970
    💖 HAPPY RELEASE DAY!!! 💖"I turn the switchblade one more time in my sweaty palm, feeling the weight of it's neat black handle and the unforgiving blade tucked inside.It was his a long time ago.It's mine now.I'm going to carve my name into his soul."Sadie is going to crawl around in my consciousness for a long time. I don't know if I'll ever be able shake the profound grief it has left in it's wake. I felt like I was drowning the entire read, sinking lower and lower, flailing and gasping for air. 💖 HAPPY RELEASE DAY!!! 💖"I turn the switchblade one more time in my sweaty palm, feeling the weight of it's neat black handle and the unforgiving blade tucked inside.It was his a long time ago.It's mine now.I'm going to carve my name into his soul."Sadie is going to crawl around in my consciousness for a long time. I don't know if I'll ever be able shake the profound grief it has left in it's wake. I felt like I was drowning the entire read, sinking lower and lower, flailing and gasping for air. It's taken me longer to write this review than it took me to read the book because I am at a loss for words. There are no words to explain how this book affected me. For an author to be able to conjur up such emotion with words alone is a true gift. I can't recommend this book enough. It will join the select few on my list of favorite books of all time. Although only half of the year has passed, I can say without a doubt that this will be the book of the year for me.I was provided an ARC of this book by NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
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  • Carrie
    January 1, 1970
    Sadie by Courtney Summers is a young adult mystery that is done in a bit of a different format than normal. The story is told by alternating between a podcast and then chapters told from Sadie’s point of view.Sadie is a teen that hasn’t had the best of lives. With an addict mother and no idea who her father is Sadie has raised herself and her younger sister Mattie. Sadie was only a child herself when Mattie was born but she did everything she could to make her sister’s life better than her own.T Sadie by Courtney Summers is a young adult mystery that is done in a bit of a different format than normal. The story is told by alternating between a podcast and then chapters told from Sadie’s point of view.Sadie is a teen that hasn’t had the best of lives. With an addict mother and no idea who her father is Sadie has raised herself and her younger sister Mattie. Sadie was only a child herself when Mattie was born but she did everything she could to make her sister’s life better than her own.The girls mother left the two on their own and Sadie tried the best she could but Mattie one day took off and that was the last Sadie saw of her. When Mattie was found dead it rocked Sadie’s world and shortly after she took off herself. Hearing about the girls West McCray starts up a podcast hoping to find the truth to their story.I’m not one that listens to podcasts so it did take me a minute to get used to the style of this book but once it got going of course the story was one that was quite compelling. Sadie is a character that is functioning on the mentality that she has nothing left to lose after her sister was murdered so it’s safe to say following her kept me on edge wondering how far she would go. This darker trip Sadie took is also one that you can’t help but feel for her as she’s only a girl herself and she have been just being a kid so prepare for an emotional ride with this one.I received an advance copy from the publisher via NetGalley.For more reviews please visit https://carriesbookreviews.com/
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  • Holly B
    January 1, 1970
    Grabbed my heart! Sadie is nineteen and she is on a mission to hunt down the man who she is convinced murdered her little sister, Mattie. She is a power house of energy and she touched my heart with her overwhelming love for Mattie. Their single mom, Claire was addicted to drugs, so Sadie was little Mattie's fill in "parent."The chapters switch from Sadie's account to a pod-cast serial called The Girls that follows the case and features some interviews. This gave he story such a "real-life" fee Grabbed my heart! Sadie is nineteen and she is on a mission to hunt down the man who she is convinced murdered her little sister, Mattie. She is a power house of energy and she touched my heart with her overwhelming love for Mattie. Their single mom, Claire was addicted to drugs, so Sadie was little Mattie's fill in "parent."The chapters switch from Sadie's account to a pod-cast serial called The Girls that follows the case and features some interviews. This gave he story such a "real-life" feel that was absolutely riveting.  Sadie has not had an easy life and has seen and experienced things that no child should have to. It truly is a dark, heart-breaking account. I'm not sure why this is considered YA because it deals with a lot of sensitive issues, but sadly some will be able to relate to her abusive home life. Her journey takes her down on a dangerous road.  At times I felt "crushed", Sadie was both brave and vulnerable. She had a plan and nothing was going to get in her way. Such a memorable character with her own inner light that shined throughout the pages. Oh, that ending!If you like gripping, emotional reads, don't miss this one. Courtney Summers is a brilliant writer.Thanks to St. Martin's Press for providing an Arc for review. Publishes on September 4, 2018.
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  • Erin
    January 1, 1970
    There's a lot of hype around this book and I know that's got YOU wondering, "do I bother?" Trust me, it's absolutely worth it, but it's also going to leave you completely gutted When I was seven, and Mattie was one, she whispered my name. I was her first word. So many of my fellow reviewers have written such eloquent reviews of Sadie . I, on the other hand, feel myself completely unable to even begin to know where to start. But I will say this -Courtney Summers, you have written a remarkable s There's a lot of hype around this book and I know that's got YOU wondering, "do I bother?" Trust me, it's absolutely worth it, but it's also going to leave you completely gutted When I was seven, and Mattie was one, she whispered my name. I was her first word. So many of my fellow reviewers have written such eloquent reviews of Sadie . I, on the other hand, feel myself completely unable to even begin to know where to start. But I will say this -Courtney Summers, you have written a remarkable story. Your book is definitely on my favourites of 2018, but it is also a story that broke my heart Because there are still so many Matties and Sadies out there and someday I hope they come home. Thanks to Netgalley for an ARC in exchange for an honest review
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  • Nina
    January 1, 1970
    *Thanks again to St. Martin’s Press for sending me an ARC of this book via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.* When Sadie’s younger sister Mattie is murdered, she swears to get revenge. She is going to kill the man who murdered her but for that she has to find him first. And so she gets herself a car and drives through the country on the trail of the guy who took away her favorite person. Sadie is told from two different perspectives. The one of Sadie herself and through a podcast calle *Thanks again to St. Martin’s Press for sending me an ARC of this book via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.* When Sadie’s younger sister Mattie is murdered, she swears to get revenge. She is going to kill the man who murdered her but for that she has to find him first. And so she gets herself a car and drives through the country on the trail of the guy who took away her favorite person. Sadie is told from two different perspectives. The one of Sadie herself and through a podcast called The Girls that was started to look into the murder of Mattie and the disappearance of Sadie and that has the goal to find answers about really happened. But that dual perspective is actually the only reason I gave this book four instead of five stars. It took me a couple of chapters to get used to it and at first it was a little confusing. It started making sense after some time though and ultimately it was actually quite interesting to see things from Sadie’s POV and then get the background information through what they discover on the podcast. Apparently, by the time the book comes out the podcast is also going to be fully available for the readers to listen to which I think will add such an interesting new dimension to this novel. But like I said, that was the only thing that bothered me about this novel and apart from that, this was a great book. I was really invested in the story but be aware that even though this is YA, it’s a very heavy novel. It includes murder, sexual abuse, child abuse and other topics and especially if you have a sibling just like me, this book will probably hit home. If something happened to my little sister, I’d never be happy again and thus this story really moved me. Another factor that greatly contributed to my enjoyment of this novel was the author’s writing style. Sadie was written in such a beautiful way and I’ll definitely be checking out some of Summers's other work in the future just to get more of that writing. So all in all, this was a great read and if you’re interested in reading a beautifully written but heavy YA mystery with lgbtq+ representation, this is the book for you. I’m giving Sadie four out of five stars and since Summers decided to leave the ending a bit open – which I actually really liked because it’s so different from how most others would’ve probably ended this book – I’m now going back to trying to decide what I think really happened at the end of the novel.instagram || my blog || twitter
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  • Cheri
    January 1, 1970
    !! NOW AVAILABLE !! ”They cry in the darkSo you can't see their tearsThey hide in the lightSo you can't see their fearsForgive and forgetAll the whileLove and pain become one and the sameIn the eyes of a wounded child“Because hell, hell is for childrenAnd you know that their little lives can become such a messHell, hell is for childrenAnd you shouldn't have to pay for your loveWith your bones and your flesh” --Hell is For Children, Pat Benatar, Songwriters: Neil Giraldo / Patricia Benatar / Ro !! NOW AVAILABLE !! ”They cry in the darkSo you can't see their tearsThey hide in the lightSo you can't see their fearsForgive and forgetAll the whileLove and pain become one and the sameIn the eyes of a wounded child“Because hell, hell is for childrenAnd you know that their little lives can become such a messHell, hell is for childrenAnd you shouldn't have to pay for your loveWith your bones and your flesh” --Hell is For Children, Pat Benatar, Songwriters: Neil Giraldo / Patricia Benatar / Roger Capps”The screen door on the trailer is rusted out, sparks a whine into all our surrounding Nowhere That Matters but if you need a visual, picture a place far, far less than suburbia and then imagine me, a few more rungs down that ladder living in a trailer rented from Fed-Me-Blueberries May Beth for as long as I’ve been alive. I live in a place that’s only good for leaving, is all that needs to be said about it, and I don’t let myself look back. Doesn’t matter if I want to, it’s just better if I don’t.”EPISODE 1 [THE GIRLS THEME] WEST McCRAY”Welcome to Cold Creek, Colorado. Population: eight hundred.””There’s almost something romantic about it, something that feels like respite from the rest of the world. It’s the perfect place to be alone with your thoughts. At least it was before.”Sadie has a mission. It drives her, physically, even when her body and mind tell her to rest, to stop. She is looking for the man she knows in her heart murdered her sister. That is, in her heart and mind, her sole purpose for living now. It is her only focus. Told in alternating chapters, you hear the words of West McCray as he relays his view of this ongoing story from his first episode of this serialized podcast, a crime that remains a mystery, a ”deeply unsettling mystery,” and the words of Sadie, who is on a quest to watch the light drain out of one man’s eyes, the man she believes murdered Mattie. Sadie is nineteen years old. Mattie was thirteen.”And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl.”May Beth Foster contacts West McCray, ultimately for the purpose of help in finding Sadie, using his podcast forum to bring it to the attention of his listeners. May Beth had been taking care of both Sadie and her younger sister, Mattie, ever since their mother left without a word, long ago now. Then the unspeakable happened, and Sadie has disappeared, and May Beth fears the worst will happen if Sadie isn’t found soon.”I can’t take another dead girl.”I loved Sadie, she’s a wonderfully smart and clever character, and while she tries – despite her stutter – to be seen as tough, invincible, inside she’s broken, with all these raw and jagged edges to her, and therefore vulnerable.This is categorized as a YA novel, but while I would not recommend this for younger than “YA,” I realize that sexual abuse isn’t limited by age. It’s not graphically depicted, but it is at the heart of this riveting story. If you’d like a taste of this in podcast format, check out: https://us.macmillan.com/podcasts/pod...Pub Date: 04 SEP 2018Many thanks for the ARC provided by St. Martin’s Press
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  • Nadia
    January 1, 1970
    It's been a while since I read a book within 24 hours but I could not help myself with Sadie! This book evokes so much emotion, my heart was racing the entire time.Sadie is such a unique and memorable character, I was rooting for her from page one, completely oblivious to the fact that she was on a hunt to kill a man! At the age of 19, Sadie's been through so much already and then her sister Mattie, who she loves the most in the world, is found dead. Learning about Sadie's miserable childhood, h It's been a while since I read a book within 24 hours but I could not help myself with Sadie! This book evokes so much emotion, my heart was racing the entire time.Sadie is such a unique and memorable character, I was rooting for her from page one, completely oblivious to the fact that she was on a hunt to kill a man! At the age of 19, Sadie's been through so much already and then her sister Mattie, who she loves the most in the world, is found dead. Learning about Sadie's miserable childhood, her drug addicted mum who walked away, unknown father, the fact that Sadie has a stutter - all of that and more made me love Sadie and want to save her desperately. Although this book has been described as a mystery, it is not a book with shocking twists and turns but it is a moving and heart-wrenching story of a girl whose love for her sister is so profound that she will protect and fight for her no matter what. I also liked the unusual format of the book - chapters narrated by Sadie alternate with a radio podcast investigating Sadie's disappearance. I found this combination of POVs worked really well, while we mostly follow the story through Sadie's eyes, we also get an insight into other characters' perspectives when they are interviewed by the radio presenter.The worst part of reading this book is that it comes to an end eventually. When I reached the final page of the book I kept swiping my Kindle in a desperate attempt to get more of Sadie's story. There is no more for now but I will definitely look for more of Courtney Summer's books. Many thanks to NetGalley and Wednesday Books for the advance reader copy in exchange for an honest review.
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  • Alana • thebookishchick
    January 1, 1970
    "It's about the lengths we go to protect the ones we love... and the high price we pay when we can't." Thank you to Wednesday Books for providing me with a copy of this book!Well, bookish friends, this is going to go down as one of my favorite books EVER. I'm not sure I can adequately express how much I loved this story but also how shattered my heart is at the same time. First and foremost let's get this out of the way, this is not an easy read. Sadie, is definitely more of a mature YA novel.  "It's about the lengths we go to protect the ones we love... and the high price we pay when we can't." Thank you to Wednesday Books for providing me with a copy of this book!Well, bookish friends, this is going to go down as one of my favorite books EVER. I'm not sure I can adequately express how much I loved this story but also how shattered my heart is at the same time. First and foremost let's get this out of the way, this is not an easy read. Sadie, is definitely more of a mature YA novel. It heavily ties into the society we live in today in the way it handles child abuse and sexual assault. It's a heavy read that at times made me feel sick to my stomach and will haunt you weeks after you finish it. Trust me, I'm still constantly going back and reread the ending of this almost three weeks later! But despite how heavy it is, it is still one of the best books I've ever had the pleasure of reading.Sadie, is so much more than your typical murder mystery novel. In fact this story easily goes down as one of my favorite mystery novels because of how compelling the POV's were written. The first POV is Sadie herself. She holds back absolutely nothing from readers in terms of her grief, guilt, love, and determination to avenge Mattie's death. The second POV is told from West McCray and his true crime podcast as he tries to track down Sadie and help her return home safely. Both POV's concurred with one another so perfectly that I could not read this fast enough. I was literally on the edge of my seat desperate to find out how it was going to end.Pro tip: treat yourself to a manicure after this and not before because you will bite all your nails off due to anticipation.Sadie's character is one that is easy to fall in love with and root for.  Sadie, raised her little sister Mattie, for basically her entire life due to their mother's absence and drug addiction. She is described as "secondary player in her own life" because she truly lives her life with only one person in mind, and that is Mattie. So when Sadie learns Mattie is murdered the anger and grief she feels is incredibly raw, and yet Sadie knows the only thing she can do for Mattie now is find her killer and make sure she kills them herself. I constantly found myself rooting so hard for Sadie to get the answers and justice she deserved but also feared immensely for her safety since the minute she packed up and left Cold Creek.This was one of those books that you pick up every possible free second you have. If you think I'm lying just know that I read one of the biggest plot twists EVER while I was sitting in line at the Starbucks drive-thru, I'm not even kidding. Sadie's dangerous journey will consume your life as she hunts down her sister's killer. At the same time this is absolutely one of those reads where less is more in terms of what you know. The less you know going into this the more you will be immersed in the race against the clock to #FindSadie. If there is one thing you need to know besides this being a heavy ready it's that the pacing starts off a little slow but by the end of this story you will be in full on panic mode. You've been warned.As for the ending, my lips are sealed but just know I initially struggled with it and was very confused, hurt, in disbelief, and a slew of other emotions but after sleeping on it I know this... it's the ending this book deserved and needed.All in all, this is a story about sisterhood, love, loss, grief, and hope all wrapped into one heart-pounding story. This was my first Courtney Summers novel but it certainly will not be my last. Also for anyone who has read this book or will be reading it, when you finish PLEASE come talk to me about the ending! Thank you so much again to Wednesday Books for providing me with a copy of the book!Blog | Twitter | Instagram
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  • Lily ☁️
    January 1, 1970
    Courtney Summers is a brilliant, wonderful, and horrible writer, who just carved my very heart out of my chest with mere words, and left me feeling numb, and empty, and shaking. And in complete awe and admiration.*Sadie’s official publication date is today, I repeat, SADIE’S OFFICIAL PUBLICATION DATE IS TODAY!! (Click on the picture to hear me gush.) Blog | Bloglovin’ | Tumblr | Instagram
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