Before I Let Go
Best friends Corey and Kyra were inseparable in their snow-covered town of Lost Creek, Alaska. When Corey moves away, she makes Kyra promise to stay strong during the long, dark winter, and wait for her return.Just days before Corey is to return home to visit, Kyra dies. Corey is devastated―and confused. The entire Lost community speaks in hushed tones about the town's lost daughter, saying her death was meant to be. And they push Corey away like she's a stranger.Corey knows something is wrong. With every hour, her suspicion grows. Lost is keeping secrets―chilling secrets. But piecing together the truth about what happened to her best friend may prove as difficult as lighting the sky in an Alaskan winter...

Before I Let Go Details

TitleBefore I Let Go
Author
ReleaseJan 2nd, 2018
PublisherSourcebooks Fire
ISBN-139781492642282
Rating
GenreYoung Adult, Mystery, Contemporary, Fiction, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Thriller, Suspense, Mystery Thriller, Glbt, Queer, Health

Before I Let Go Review

  • Elise (thebookishactress on wordpress)
    January 1, 1970
    The level of mediocrity here is just astounding. Given how ranty this review is, maybe I should one star this, but I honestly just don't have the fucking energy to hate this book. It's too mediocre to deserve hatred. I'm going to full-out explain everything I disliked and liked about this book, but really, I should replace the whole review with “read Tess Sharpe's Far From You” written fifty-eight times down the page. That book is also focused on girl friendship with romantic vibes, but it's got The level of mediocrity here is just astounding. Given how ranty this review is, maybe I should one star this, but I honestly just don't have the fucking energy to hate this book. It's too mediocre to deserve hatred. I'm going to full-out explain everything I disliked and liked about this book, but really, I should replace the whole review with “read Tess Sharpe's Far From You” written fifty-eight times down the page. That book is also focused on girl friendship with romantic vibes, but it's got far more developed characters to drive the story. Read Far From You!! Do it!!# CAN YOU EVEN BE MORE CLICHECan I summarize this book for you? It's a mashup of "dead best friend had secrets and may have been in love with live best friend, because bury your gays" and "girl moves to small town and discovers family secrets", except if you leeched every single good thing about both those plots out of the book.Before I Let Go was especially disappointing for me because of all the comparisons it begs to every other suspense book ever. I was really hoping this would differentiate itself with a new take on all those tropes. Uh. Nope, it's not an original take. This is a mashup of a lot of way better books and also predictable. Here's the thing, though: any cliche suspense book can be saved. How do you save a cliche suspense book? There are two options: characters or atmosphere. Yeah, this book doesn't do either. Let me rant about ONE thing first, and then I'll get into those two factors. # OH MY DEAR GOD, USE GOOGLEOn the topic of representation. This book does have an ace main character who is called such on-page. Unfortunately, asexuality and aromanticism are equated by the narrative, and I'm not so sure whether I, personally, am happy with this as representation. I expect Nijkamp was trying to make this book more palatable to readers who don't know what asexuality is, let alone aromanticism, and I understand that's important for readers to see any rep at all. But I'm incredibly unhappy with this as a writing decision. Corey isn't rejecting Kyra because she's ace; if she's rejecting Kyra because of her sexuality, she's rejecting Kyra due to her aromanticism. While I'm happy with the majority-queer cast and themes about sexuality, the lack of use of the term "aromanticism" really, really bothers me. # WE NEED CHARACTER WORK, KIDDOSWe all know that books in which the protagonist goes back to her small town are a bit of a cliche. But I do tend to enjoy them. Why? Because at its core, this trope is about the exploration of relationships and childhood. Yet this book doesn't explore a single fucking thing about our protagonist's childhood. (Do you know why I just called her our protagonist? Because it has been less than twenty minutes since I finished this book and I just forget Corey's name.)Moving on. For a good character-driven suspense, we need to focus on 1) the protagonist's character, 2) the former best friend's character, and 3) the complexities of their relationship. #1 - As I've already mentioned, our protagonist is incredibly bland. Informed traits do not make a character - what we need is an inner monologue. And unfortunately, Corey doesn't have any unique thoughts or reactions to the world. I feel as if she's a character I should adore, but most of her character is for the reader's emotional manipulation.#2 - I do think the author put a vague amount of effort into developing Kyra, the dead best friend. Kyra's BPD is represented well, at least, and other characters are clear on the fact that she is more than her BPD. That is an awesome theme and I think it's maybe the one thing I liked about this book. But, uh... she's textually not much more than her BPD. I do think, to be positive, that it comes from a matter of lacking effort on the part of the author rather than a genuine distaste for mentally ill people. #3 - Kyra and Corey's relationship just seems so... lacking in problems? Kyra gets rejected and isn't weird about it, they never fight, there's no tension between them. There are one or two moments where past Kyra mentions feeling like no one, not even Corey, sees her as anything but her BPD. That was interesting idea I would've liked to explore. Yet it feels oddly glossed over, and more importantly, we don't get much of a sense of that from Corey's narration. It feels like an informed character trait and loses all its interest within the narrative. Basically, I just felt like every problem and character trait was informed rather than shown. I get that it's young adult, but listen - young adult and lazy are not the same thing. Moving on. # WHAT IS A SUSPENSE? I DON'T KNOW HERThe book could've gotten away with its incredibly lacking characters if the plot weren't so fucking obvious. I had the solution guessed from the blurb. There's no twist. The townsfolk start saying “it was her natural end” on page 50 and they stay on that exact same phrase right to the end. When the whole town is saying the same thing, you know what's going on. There's not even a slow progression from normal atmosphere to creepy atmosphere, which could've replaced a slow-burn plot. And this is maybe what ruins the book the most.I am firmly of the belief that a good atmosphere can save an otherwise mediocre book. (Remember Daughter of Deep Silence?) Nijkamp tries to add atmosphere, at least. There are a ton of minor touches where Corey thinks she's being followed by ghosts. But all these touches just felt really superficial because they don't add to the story. There's no explanation of anything that Corey sees, so it feels like a transparent ploy to scare the audience. You can't add ghosts and then not explain it just for atmosphere. The other issue is that any atmosphere created is ruined by the thrown-in chapters written in script format. This somehow feels both gimmicky and lazy. There were a few scenes written in script that honestly kind of felt like the author drafted a scene and couldn't be bothered to translate it into normal writing. But okay, let's say Nijkamp genuinely thought it would add atmosphere. It doesn't. The epistolatory chapters and the flashback chapters fit in fine, but the play-script chapters completely throw you out of the story. I almost thought Nijkamp was planning on some kind of reveal about these chapters being fake because of how misplaced they felt. I did like the use of snow-covered Alaska as a method to create atmosphere. Honestly, though, I've seen this done better. If you're looking for a book that uses Alaska to create a truly great atmosphere, look to The Smell of Other People's Houses instead. # SOME LONE POSITIVES?I will say that Nijkamp has a very readable writing style. I finished this in only two sittings and it wasn't a struggle to get through. And while a lot of the book felt to me like smoke-and-mirrors meant to make the readership think things were deeper than they are, I think this could be a good book to mindlessly consume. It's not going to be a DNF. However, I think most readers will find it easy to see through this book. VERDICT: A cliche story that doesn't manage to be anything more. Honestly, I'm starting to doubt if I would like This Is Where It Ends if I read it today - Nijkamp is good at emotionally manipulative writing, but I don't think this book is trying to shoot for anything deeper that readers can truly connect to. Find me on my Blog | Goodreads | Twitter | Youtube
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  • Carrie
    January 1, 1970
    When Corey moved away from her home town of snow covered Lost Creek, Alaska she promised her best friend, Kyra, that she would always stay in touch and always be there for her. As with most teens though Corey's new life and new friends she made after her move kept her busy so she wasn't the best with keeping in touch with Kyra. Corey did have plans for returning to Lost Creek very soon though and finally seeing Kyra again. Unfortunately Corey receives a phone call that Kyra has passed away, she When Corey moved away from her home town of snow covered Lost Creek, Alaska she promised her best friend, Kyra, that she would always stay in touch and always be there for her. As with most teens though Corey's new life and new friends she made after her move kept her busy so she wasn't the best with keeping in touch with Kyra. Corey did have plans for returning to Lost Creek very soon though and finally seeing Kyra again. Unfortunately Corey receives a phone call that Kyra has passed away, she was found under the ice in the lake that should have been frozen solid this time of year. Some think that Kyra purposely went looking for a weak spot in the ice and a way to end her own life after battling mental illness for years. Corey knows she needs to return to Lost Creek and get some answers on just what happened to her best friend. Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp is a young adult mystery read. After finishing this book I'm beginning to think that perhaps Marieke Nijkamp is just not an author for me. Last year I read This Is Where It Ends and while the idea behind the story was one that I was really taken in with the execution of the book left a lot to be desired for me and unfortunately now I can say the same with Before I Let Go. I think really my biggest issue with this book came with the character development which was pretty non-existent. Corey is really the only character that felt developed and I find myself hard pressed to say even that as all that is repeated is she and Kyra had been close so now instead of owning up to her own mistakes she is determined to find who is at fault for Kyra's death which should be touching and emotional but instead I just disliked Corey and found myself not caring if other's were at fault or not. Now as far as the mystery is concerned in this one it is buried within the repetitive nature of Corey blaming the town and eventually does come to light. It's one that I might have been really taken with as there was a creepy and disturbing vibe but if I blinked while reading I would have missed it as that part of the story wasn't developed very well in my opinion. So as sad as I am to say this one just wasn't for me and as much as the ideas behind Ms. Nijkamp's stories appeal to me I think this may be my last attempt. I received an advance copy from the publisher via NetGalley.For more reviews please visit https://carriesbookreviews.wordpress....
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  • Hajar Benmazhar
    January 1, 1970
    I have some mixed feelings about this book!The story managed to hook me up from the very start. I loved the short chapters and the beautiful writing. The setting was very gripping; a creepy little town filled with creepy little people with creepy little secrets.I usually quite enjoy flashbacks in stories but in this one, I just felt like they’ve missed the point. Instead of chopped bit and pieces that don’t add much to the story, they could’ve been utilised in a way to give a much better underst I have some mixed feelings about this book!The story managed to hook me up from the very start. I loved the short chapters and the beautiful writing. The setting was very gripping; a creepy little town filled with creepy little people with creepy little secrets.I usually quite enjoy flashbacks in stories but in this one, I just felt like they’ve missed the point. Instead of chopped bit and pieces that don’t add much to the story, they could’ve been utilised in a way to give a much better understanding of what happened. The characters weren’t that well developed and that’s probably why I couldn’t connect to them. Moreover, the ending wouldn’t necessarily fit my definition of satisfying but I still managed to enjoy it.All in all, this story could’ve been much better but it is still worth a read!I would like to thank the Publishers, NetGalley, and the Author for sending me an ARC of this book.All my reviews can be found on my blog.
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  • Esther
    January 1, 1970
    Thanks to the author and Netgalley for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.The best part of this book, for me, was the setting. I truly hope there are not many towns like Lost Creek around. The town and the people in it gave this book a pretty creepy vibe. I believe this is a likeable book for a lot of people, everyone can find something to bond with in this book and feel satisfactory at the end.A longer review can be found at Bite Into booksI have to be honest Thanks to the author and Netgalley for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.The best part of this book, for me, was the setting. I truly hope there are not many towns like Lost Creek around. The town and the people in it gave this book a pretty creepy vibe. I believe this is a likeable book for a lot of people, everyone can find something to bond with in this book and feel satisfactory at the end.A longer review can be found at Bite Into booksI have to be honest here, I did not like This Is Where It Ends that much. I felt that Marieke Nijkamp did not give me enough answers at the end of the book, while the characters and relationships were the best part of the book. I was so happy to see I was chosen to review the book via Netgalley because I did not feel that Marieke Nijkamp is a bad author. I feel that she gave me a satisfactory feeling and the end of the book and was able to write another book with great characters and a lot of feelings and life lessons. So while I try not to compare books, I do have to tell you that I like Before I Let Go better than her first book!
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  • Katie McNelly
    January 1, 1970
    It will be very difficult to write a spoiler-free review of this book, but I will in due time. For now, suffice it to say that I liked this MUCH better than 'this is where it ends', though I can't say I cared that much more about the characters. It was a page turner and I polished it off in one sitting (about 4 hours). This YA is worth the read, and I have a feeling much younger readers (who get less wrapped up in a need for in-depth characterization) will really enjoy it.I absolutely LOVED the It will be very difficult to write a spoiler-free review of this book, but I will in due time. For now, suffice it to say that I liked this MUCH better than 'this is where it ends', though I can't say I cared that much more about the characters. It was a page turner and I polished it off in one sitting (about 4 hours). This YA is worth the read, and I have a feeling much younger readers (who get less wrapped up in a need for in-depth characterization) will really enjoy it.I absolutely LOVED the experimental structure and the diverse cast of characters.RIYL: We Were Liars, Dangerous Girls, All the Bright Places
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  • Liz Overberg
    January 1, 1970
    To be blunt, this book just isn't good. In order to build a growing sense of unease, a good storyteller will slowly build from "things seem pretty normal here" to "WTF is going on?!" Unfortunately, this story starts at the latter and stays there, effectively killing any tension. The events are incredibly repetitive. I think the main character, Corey, has the same conversations with others and with herself about 76 times.There is absolutely zero characterization of any characters other than the p To be blunt, this book just isn't good. In order to build a growing sense of unease, a good storyteller will slowly build from "things seem pretty normal here" to "WTF is going on?!" Unfortunately, this story starts at the latter and stays there, effectively killing any tension. The events are incredibly repetitive. I think the main character, Corey, has the same conversations with others and with herself about 76 times.There is absolutely zero characterization of any characters other than the protagonist, Corey, and her friend Kyra. Kyra's parents may as well be the sheriff may as well be the post office clerk may as well be the other people in town. They are all exactly the same character with different names. Forgiving the elements of the story that are meant to be mysterious and possibly magical, too many things don't add up. After Corey, a 17-year-old girl, moved away from her best friend, she never texted or called? Corey and Kyra's only option for communication was snail mail? In 2017? The author makes a lame attempt at using the poor cell phone reception excuse, but you would think Kyra could have talked on a landline. Or emailed? Skyped? Finally, Corey is the worst. She is self-righteous and unsympathetic. I don't even care that she was right about the things that she was saying. She was angry and unlikable, and she didn't attempt to make sense of anything before she went around yelling at everyone that they were bad people. And you know what? They were bad people. Which was not really explained at all.I feel like this was the type of really melodramatic, overly-long, not well written story that would get submitted in a freshman writing workshop. Steer clear.
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  • Nicole Field
    January 1, 1970
    After reading and loving This is Where It Ends last year, it's not unfair of me to say that I had incredibly high expectations for Marieke's next book. Thus, when I saw an ARC appearing on my dashboard, I couldn't mash that button hard or fast enough. My excitement at getting it is nearly paired with my disappointment while reading it. There was just too much wrong with it. I did read it all the way to the end to see if there was any saving it with the resolution and, I'm sad to say, there wasn After reading and loving This is Where It Ends last year, it's not unfair of me to say that I had incredibly high expectations for Marieke's next book. Thus, when I saw an ARC appearing on my dashboard, I couldn't mash that button hard or fast enough. My excitement at getting it is nearly paired with my disappointment while reading it. There was just too much wrong with it. I did read it all the way to the end to see if there was any saving it with the resolution and, I'm sad to say, there wasn't. Not in my opinion.Before I Let Go is a story about a town that abuses a girl who suffers bipolar disorder. Up till that point, they do such things as withhold her medication and her support network, including her psychiatrist, so that they can use her mechanism she uses to cope with mania--painting--to predict the future and draw the rest of the town--not her--together. She tries to escape them and dies in the process. And the rest of the town never, ever pay for it. It is about a town who gaslights Kyra's best friend when she comes back to Lost for the funeral, telling her that she doesn't understand, that it's not like that. When Corey doesn't allow them to mess around with the truth of what happened, she too gets abused and on at least two occasions they try to kill her.It's so hard to even understand the motivations by the end. You see Kyra's father, who is meant to see Corey like a second daughter, attempting to kill her by the end because she took some letters by Kyra that were addressed to Corey...I've got nothing bad to say about the asexual or pansexual rep of the novel. There's nothing bad to say about it. I don't know how to finish this review. Unquestioningly, the quality of writing and sentence structure was good. There were no technical aspects that made it hard reading. But the content meant it was a really hard read to get through, and I'm not sure there was any pay off.
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  • Beth (Ducky)
    January 1, 1970
    This was heartbreaking. This was beautiful. This story needed to be told. I will never forget these characters, this town, this book, this story, these emotions I felt while reading it. That's all I can process right now.
  • Dahlia
    January 1, 1970
    CP Benefits - I have already read and loved this <3 I don't know if I'm allowed to say anything about it yet but WHEN I AM...
  • Lauren
    January 1, 1970
    Note: I received an ARC of this via Netgalley. This in no way influences my opinion.I have extremely mixed opinions about this book. I felt constantly compelled to carry on reading, but at the same time, I was left with more questions than answers and I often felt like the book didn’t flow as well as it could have done. The book felt choppy and I feel like things could have been explained a little better.One of the things I both liked and disliked about the book was the flashbacks. It often went Note: I received an ARC of this via Netgalley. This in no way influences my opinion.I have extremely mixed opinions about this book. I felt constantly compelled to carry on reading, but at the same time, I was left with more questions than answers and I often felt like the book didn’t flow as well as it could have done. The book felt choppy and I feel like things could have been explained a little better.One of the things I both liked and disliked about the book was the flashbacks. It often went back in time and then came back to present day etc. Whilst I usually like this style of writing when used well, I don’t feel like it added anything extra to the story. It gave us snippets of the past between the two characters, but I don’t feel like it was entirely useful in understanding what happened. If it had been used better and given us more of an insight, rather than the snippets we were given, I feel like it could have really helped the readers and we could’ve gotten a better idea of the bigger picture.Another issue I had with this book was the fact that I didn’t feel that much empathy for the characters. I feel like the chopping and changing between past and present stopped me from really connecting to the characters. Also, the author used a variety of different minority groups, to the point where I felt like she was using them to try and be different rather than actually representing them as they are. Corey was Asexual whilst Kyra was pansexual and bipolar at the same time. Whilst the bipolar was represented (as far as I know – I don’t understand a lot about the disorder, but some), I feel like it could have been represented more, rather than becoming the side issue. What I did like was the fact that no one really understood Kyra or what she was going through. I feel like this is so true to society because a lot of people misunderstand illnesses such as these and that leads to the sufferers feeling lonely and like an outsider – which is exactly what Kyra was feeling.What I did like about this book was the creep factor. The town, the people and history of Lost Creek was completely eerie and it definitely had me wanting more. I had to know what was going to happen next and where it was going to go. I loved the spa and the feeling of abandonment that it had because I feel like it added something to the state of mind Kyra had before her death. The people were also completely creepy. I can definitely understand how the two MC’s felt like outsiders because it was a completely close knit community with secrets.Another issue I had with this book was the ending. I felt like I had more questions about the characters and the events that led up to Kyra’s death than I did answers. There was some issues with the plot that confused me and which were never actually addressed. I also felt like the ending was a bit anti climatic considering the things that had happened before hand – I almost felt like there was something/a certain event that was missing that I would have liked to have seen, but it never happened. (I don’t want to say too much because spoilers).All in all, I have completely mixed reviews about this book. I felt completely hooked by it and I had to know what was going to happen next, but at the same time I feel like it had its issues and could have been better. This book definitely has a lot of potential! Also, I just want to mention that I absolutely love the cover! I gave this book 3.5/5 stars.
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  • Amy's Book Reviews
    January 1, 1970
    **Thanks to NetGalley for providing a complimentary copy of BEFORE I LET GO by Marieke Nijkamp in exchange for my honesty review**After being in boarding school for seven months, Corey returns to Lost Creek, Alaska following her best friend Kyra's suicide. Kyra, a bipolar artist, never fit into the town of barely over two hundred residents. After her diagnosis, almost nobody spoke to her. Always an odd town, Lost now seems like a cross between a Stepford, minus the perfect people, and a cult, mi **Thanks to NetGalley for providing a complimentary copy of BEFORE I LET GO by Marieke Nijkamp in exchange for my honesty review**After being in boarding school for seven months, Corey returns to Lost Creek, Alaska following her best friend Kyra's suicide. Kyra, a bipolar artist, never fit into the town of barely over two hundred residents. After her diagnosis, almost nobody spoke to her. Always an odd town, Lost now seems like a cross between a Stepford, minus the perfect people, and a cult, minus the charismatic leader. In Corey's absence, Kyra became almost an oracle. Townsfolk and her family speak of Kyra's happiness as a beloved member of the community. Corey wonders, if her friend was so joyful, why commit suicide. Kyra's mother and others explain that Kyra's bright light couldn't last forever.If I had to describe BEFORE I LET GO in one word, it would be Creepy with a capital C. And that's a good thing. Nijkamp writes gorgeous, lyrical prose with unique, complex characters and a setting gorgeously atmospheric. On paper, I should have loved this novel. Unfortunately, my reading experience was neither fun nor exciting. I loved the story, but I couldn't connect with the manner in which it was told. Nijkamp sues of snail mail letters, phone calls, script did enhance my enjoyment, but reading BEFORE I LET GO still felt like a chore instead of a pleasure. I believe this will be a 5 star read for most people.
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  • Stacy Fetters
    January 1, 1970
    ”The feeling of being watched doesn’t abate. It grows stronger. A chill runs along my spine. I close my eyes, shift my head, and force myself to look into the room. No one.I won’t sugar coat this at all. This was kind of spooky. It reads just like an M. Night Shyamalan script and it ends just like one of his movies, in total confusion. I have so many questions and I’m very grateful that my library will be Skyping with the author very soon. This book took me no time to read. It was so hard to put ”The feeling of being watched doesn’t abate. It grows stronger. A chill runs along my spine. I close my eyes, shift my head, and force myself to look into the room. No one.I won’t sugar coat this at all. This was kind of spooky. It reads just like an M. Night Shyamalan script and it ends just like one of his movies, in total confusion. I have so many questions and I’m very grateful that my library will be Skyping with the author very soon. This book took me no time to read. It was so hard to put down and there were parts that were so good, that I reread them again. From page one, I was glued to the bitter cold of Alaska, broken ice, and a mysterious death. The only thing that halted me was the ending and the bajillion questions running around in my head. We know how Kyra died but what about all the paranormal spookshow that took place throughout the entire book? I need answers and I kind of need them now. The picture that Marieke paints (😉😉) lets you travel through the eyes of the characters. Her words were mesmerizing and beautiful as they lead you to this forbidden fortress of dark secrets. Before I Let Go was an addictive creepy read that will have you gasping until the last page. Just beware of the humming, that’s when you need to run!
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  • Esmee
    January 1, 1970
    3/5 Ik heb dit boek in twee dagen uitgelezen, maar ik moest het verhaal toch even laten bezinken. Ik vond het verhaal, dat wat zich in het heden afspeelt, erg interessant. Het was spannend, omdat ik net zoals Corey er graag achter wilde komen wat er precies gebeurd was met Kyra. Ik vond deze verhaallijn echt heel tof en ik vloog door de bladzijden omdat het verhaal gewoon zo bizar was (op een goede manier!).De flashbacks vond ik minder, omdat ik het er veel vond (na ieder hoofdstuk in het heden) 3/5 Ik heb dit boek in twee dagen uitgelezen, maar ik moest het verhaal toch even laten bezinken. Ik vond het verhaal, dat wat zich in het heden afspeelt, erg interessant. Het was spannend, omdat ik net zoals Corey er graag achter wilde komen wat er precies gebeurd was met Kyra. Ik vond deze verhaallijn echt heel tof en ik vloog door de bladzijden omdat het verhaal gewoon zo bizar was (op een goede manier!).De flashbacks vond ik minder, omdat ik het er veel vond (na ieder hoofdstuk in het heden) en ook wat chaotisch omdat het wat tijd betreft ook door elkaar liep. Ik snap waarom deze hoofdstukken ook van belang waren, omdat je als lezer hierdoor Kyra en haar ziekte beter kan begrijpen.
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  • Jessica White
    January 1, 1970
    Let me start by saying this is not anything like This Is Where It Ends.That being said, I still loved it. Before I Let Go hits on so many important issues, such as sexuality, suicide, and mental illness (bipolar disorder specifically). I love that Marieke Nijkamp doesn't shy away from topics like this and instead embraces them.So I'm sure you want to hear about the book now.Corey got a call that no one ever want to receive, her best friend is dead. Suicide. Kyra struggled with bipolar disorder a Let me start by saying this is not anything like This Is Where It Ends.That being said, I still loved it. Before I Let Go hits on so many important issues, such as sexuality, suicide, and mental illness (bipolar disorder specifically). I love that Marieke Nijkamp doesn't shy away from topics like this and instead embraces them.So I'm sure you want to hear about the book now.Corey got a call that no one ever want to receive, her best friend is dead. Suicide. Kyra struggled with bipolar disorder and was often called "freak", "outsider", and was completely misunderstood. All of Lost Creek avoided her after her diagnosis. Everyone except for Corey, because they needed each other. Corey wanted her best friend to fit it and be accepted, but also relished during Kyra's episodes because it meant she got to be normal for a few days. Kyra's episodes were bad. The would go AWOL for days at a time. She would enter a trance where all she could do was paint. She used art as a coping mechanism on her bad days. Once Corey moved out of Lost, Kyra's bad days got worse. But the town didn't know that. They believed she was telling the future through her art work. They believed that they had finally found a place for Kyra and loved what she gave them. But they didn't love her, they didn't care about her... They cared about her art and what it did to bring the town the hope they so desperately needed.So why was Corey so hellbent on finding out what really happened?Because Kyra needed her to know. Kyra needed to show her the life she built.Kyra needed her to know she was scared.Kyra needed to get out of Lost Creek, and she knew this was the only way to do it.It's a dark read with an almost cult like feel to it. I enjoyed every second of it, which was actually only a few hours of reading time. If you liked her first book, you will probably enjoy this one too! I cannot thank NetGalley and Sourcebooks Fire enough for sending me this advanced readers copy!Mark your calendars, Before I Let Go hits shelves January 23, 2018!This review and more can be found at A Reader's Diary!
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  • Eline
    January 1, 1970
    4,5/5Dit is een soort boek dat je moet beleven, niet lezen.In het boek gebeurt er eigenlijk bijzonder weinig. Corey heeft veel gesprekken met mensen, en sommige gesprekken worden zelfs herhaald. Als het daar bij was gebleven had ik dit boek niet zo hoog zitten. Maar toen ging de knop om.Er is iets magisch aan dit boek. Ja, echt. Magisch. Op een gegeven moment werd ik in het boek gezogen, op een manier die ik nog nooit eerder heb meegemaakt. Ik voelde het dorp en het mysterie, de keiharde waarhei 4,5/5Dit is een soort boek dat je moet beleven, niet lezen.In het boek gebeurt er eigenlijk bijzonder weinig. Corey heeft veel gesprekken met mensen, en sommige gesprekken worden zelfs herhaald. Als het daar bij was gebleven had ik dit boek niet zo hoog zitten. Maar toen ging de knop om.Er is iets magisch aan dit boek. Ja, echt. Magisch. Op een gegeven moment werd ik in het boek gezogen, op een manier die ik nog nooit eerder heb meegemaakt. Ik voelde het dorp en het mysterie, de keiharde waarheid van wat er gebeurd is. Ik voelde het allemaal. Ik zou je niet eens kunnen vertellen hoe dat allemaal voelde.Dit boek is niet voor iedereen. Dat wil ik meteen voorop zetten. Maar als je houd van een ervaring in plaats van een boeiend plot, een gevoel in plaats van een verhaal, dan raad ik je dit boek zeker aan. Neem er de tijd voor en lees het zo veel mogelijk in een keer. Het is het waard. Want damn, wat was dat tof.
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  • Jen Malone
    January 1, 1970
    Take Isaac from Heroes, make him a pansexual teen girl from remote Alaska, and add a hauntingly creepy story of her last months and death plus beautiful writing... and there you have Before I Let Go. So lovely!
  • Kate
    January 1, 1970
    I feel like people could move from Twin Peaks to Lost Creek and not be considered outsiders. Very creepy and atmospheric, this was quick read that occasionally got bogged down. I personally liked the way the book was written- with phone conversations, letters and such added in. While I didn't like it as much as Nijkamp's last book, it made for a good October read, and I'm sure that it'd be a good book to curl up with during the next snowstorm... but be aware that it'll have you side-eyeing your I feel like people could move from Twin Peaks to Lost Creek and not be considered outsiders. Very creepy and atmospheric, this was quick read that occasionally got bogged down. I personally liked the way the book was written- with phone conversations, letters and such added in. While I didn't like it as much as Nijkamp's last book, it made for a good October read, and I'm sure that it'd be a good book to curl up with during the next snowstorm... but be aware that it'll have you side-eyeing your townsfolk.
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  • M. Hollis
    January 1, 1970
    "The differences between us were never more obvious than when we looked at the night sky. I saw supernovas and explosions, while she saw the stories behind these phenomena. I sought understanding, while she gave the stars meaning."Before I Let Go is the story of two best friends, Corey and Kyra, who grew up in a strange small town. We see the story in many different stages of their lives as Corey moves away from her old life, and Kyra stays behind.I thinks this book is one that people will eithe "The differences between us were never more obvious than when we looked at the night sky. I saw supernovas and explosions, while she saw the stories behind these phenomena. I sought understanding, while she gave the stars meaning."Before I Let Go is the story of two best friends, Corey and Kyra, who grew up in a strange small town. We see the story in many different stages of their lives as Corey moves away from her old life, and Kyra stays behind.I thinks this book is one that people will either love or hate. I read it in just a few hours and I honestly adored every page. I could not put this down and cried all my way through it. Usually, I prefer my readings to be fluffy and lighthearted these days, but when the dark and sad is written as well as in Before I Let Go, that's my favorite kind of read. It's fast and easy to read, engaging and addictive. You have to keep reading to understand what the hell is going on no matter what.I have to say that this is a story you have to read as mystery without looking for the logic behind it. If you spend too much time thinking about it, there are little flaws that make this not so perfect. But for what the author tried to do, I really enjoyed. And if you really think about it: (view spoiler)[ How much did Kyra foresee and how much was just the small-minded people making it happen because they wanted it to be real? Food for thoughts. (hide spoiler)]I love Kyra and relate so much with her and now I have to go kill every person who hurt her. It was honestly so nice to see a character who is so much like me, even though we have different MIs. Kyra's bipolar disorder is well detailed here in this book and something that I had never seen described like this in fiction. The way she talks about her mental illness hit very close to home."Have you ever not slept for days on end? All I hear are a million stories, but I can't sit still long enough to write them down. All I see are images that demand to be committeed to paper, because otherwise they'll claw their way out through my skin."I definitely want to go check the author's other stories now.
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  • Dana Blazsek
    January 1, 1970
    Thank you to Netgalley and Sourcefire Books for giving me an advanced e-copy of this book. Months after leaving for boarding school, Corey finds out her best friend Kyra has died. She has drowned below the thick ice in their home town of Lost Creek Alaska. When home everyone keeps telling Corey that Kyra, who for years was ignored and treated poorly by the town, was "burned out" and "knew she had to die", but "important to the town". Confused by this, Corey sets off to find out what really happe Thank you to Netgalley and Sourcefire Books for giving me an advanced e-copy of this book. Months after leaving for boarding school, Corey finds out her best friend Kyra has died. She has drowned below the thick ice in their home town of Lost Creek Alaska. When home everyone keeps telling Corey that Kyra, who for years was ignored and treated poorly by the town, was "burned out" and "knew she had to die", but "important to the town". Confused by this, Corey sets off to find out what really happened to Kyra. I enjoyed this book, just not as much as other thrillers. The premise was a great idea, and it was executed fine. But I think there definitely could have been more depth brought to the characters of the town. The creepiness factor was there, but I think it could have been taken up a notch. Though I gave this three stars, I would still recommend to others. I know other people who would enjoy this the same, if not more, than me!
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  • Bekka
    January 1, 1970
    Flawless.
  • Sarah E.
    January 1, 1970
    I read an excerpt from Buzz Books 2017: Young Adult Fall/Winter via Netgalley. It's a little slow to start but I have hope that it'll pick up because I am looking forward to this one.
  • Mandy
    January 1, 1970
    DNF @ 27%Thank you, thank you, thank you to Sourcebooks Fire for sending me over a copy! You're the best, but it did not affect my review in the slightest. Okay, I really don't even know what to do with this book?? I tried really, really hard, but I just failed so hard. I thought it was a bit We Are Okay by Nina LaCour meets a murder mystery, and I was so intrigued. I was even intrigued while I was reading it when it got to what was happening with Kyera, but other things got in the way and I fai DNF @ 27%Thank you, thank you, thank you to Sourcebooks Fire for sending me over a copy! You're the best, but it did not affect my review in the slightest. Okay, I really don't even know what to do with this book?? I tried really, really hard, but I just failed so hard. I thought it was a bit We Are Okay by Nina LaCour meets a murder mystery, and I was so intrigued. I was even intrigued while I was reading it when it got to what was happening with Kyera, but other things got in the way and I failed.Here's what didn't click for me:I thought it was trying too hard? At some points, I think this book wanted to be the pretty book. It wanted pretty images, little snapshots, and gorgeous prose, but it sounded like it trying so much for it. There were some lines in here that did strike me, and there is one line that I'm obsessed with. However, for the most part, I would just confused with some stuff, and I never got into a flow with it.I was confuseddddddd. I had no clue what was happening in this story. For some parts, I thought this was a ghost story. Other parts, I was sure it was contemporary. And then for some parts, I'm full on convinced it's some dyastopia/sci-fi town like Wayward Pines because everyone was content to ask zero questions, were totally fine with a young girl's death because it was her time(!!!!) and she, like, gave some good art to the world, and treated the main character like an outsider because she left for like two months? I literally just kept blinking at the book because it had to be a mystery that I could not solve. I was very concerned with the fact that no one seemed to be grieving or asking any questions about Kyra's death whatsoever. Maybe it was part of the mystery that would end up getting answered later on in the story, but I couldn't wrap my head around it.The main character - well, kind of. I believe her name is Corey, but trust me, I was struggling to remember it. She wasn't a bad narrator. She made some super good points (there was this new guy to town that literally gave her a lecture about her town and she's like, um, dude I've lived here forever???) and was actually asking the important questions. I was like YES. FINALLY SOMEONE GETS IT. But...that was about it. I know nothing about her personality, what makes her tick, her feelings for the most part. I wanted to feel more from her, but she was just...well, she was just there. I felt nothing for her, and I really don't think that's good for a main character.As I said, I did think some parts of this book had a lot of potential to be something very interesting, but I was just confused and bored for the most part. I couldn't wrap my head around some parts, and there wasn't anything that was strong enough to keep me trying to muddle through it. I think if the book wasn't trying to be something super mysterious, it would have been a lot more clear and I definitely would have been excited to continue on with it. I did DNF 100 pages in, so maybe in the next 268 pages, things were cleared up, but I'm just not feeling this one at all. Thanks for sending it over to me, Sourcebooks Fire, but it wasn't on fire for me. No rating because it was a DNF and a Snow White rating!
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  • Kate
    January 1, 1970
    This is one of the most offensive portrayals of mental illness I've ever read.
  • viktoria
    January 1, 1970
    tl;dr review: I loved the asexual representation in this! I particularly appreciate reading it in something that isn't a contemporary or a fantasy. (With contemporaries especially, there's only so many I can read before I burn out, but if you throw in a mystery, I'm good.) The mystery in this book, however, really didn't work for me. Maybe it's me, not you, book? I usually like slow, subtle mysteries with unusual endings, but in this case, I just felt like I read 368 pages for no reason other th tl;dr review: I loved the asexual representation in this! I particularly appreciate reading it in something that isn't a contemporary or a fantasy. (With contemporaries especially, there's only so many I can read before I burn out, but if you throw in a mystery, I'm good.) The mystery in this book, however, really didn't work for me. Maybe it's me, not you, book? I usually like slow, subtle mysteries with unusual endings, but in this case, I just felt like I read 368 pages for no reason other than some sweet ace rep (hence the two stars).
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  • T.
    January 1, 1970
    I've heard that this is #ownvoices with an ace MC, and I'm so excited!!
  • Paige (Illegal in 3 Countries)
    January 1, 1970
    See more of my reviews on The YA Kitten! My copy was an eARC I got through the publisher via NetGalley as a reviewer for YA Books Central.Diversity Rating: 4 – This Is Our WorldRacial-Ethnic: 2 (Roshan and his father are Indian and from the UK; Native and Indigenous people are mentioned regularly, but none appear on the page)QUILTBAG: 5 (Kyra is pansexual, Corey is asexual with no romantic orientation stated, Roshan and Sam are gay)Disability: 4 (Kyra has bipolar disorder; excellent, sensitive r See more of my reviews on The YA Kitten! My copy was an eARC I got through the publisher via NetGalley as a reviewer for YA Books Central.Diversity Rating: 4 – This Is Our WorldRacial-Ethnic: 2 (Roshan and his father are Indian and from the UK; Native and Indigenous people are mentioned regularly, but none appear on the page)QUILTBAG: 5 (Kyra is pansexual, Corey is asexual with no romantic orientation stated, Roshan and Sam are gay)Disability: 4 (Kyra has bipolar disorder; excellent, sensitive representation)Intersectionality: 4 (Kyra, y’all)Ah, Alaska: the US state where the people have Canadian accents, can see Russia from their backyards, and have one of the only decent Republicans in the entirety of Congress. (Their senator Lisa Murkowski has been instrumental in stopping ACA repeals, though her general record is spotty and she’s very pro-gun.) You won’t find many YA books set in Alaska and now Before I Let Go joins the small club. It also joins the “books I’m gonna get but never reread” because it’s SO GOOD but omfg I can’t put myself through this book again. MY HEART.Once upon a time, as this storytelling-focused story might begin a tale, Corey and Kyra were best friends in the microscopic Lost Creek. Then Corey’s family moved to Canada and Corey went away to boarding school. Seven months later, Kyra died when the ice broke on a frozen lake and she fell in. In those seven months, Lost went from considering Kyra a bipolar “danger” to the revered hometown golden girl. Corey doesn’t trust a bit of what she’s hearing, but Lost no longer trusts her. Seven months away is enough time for Corey to become an outsider–and Lost doesn’t take kindly to outsiders. Contemporary, horror, suspense, mystery, something unexplainable–the span of genres in Before I Let Go lends it a multifaceted quality. Though busy at times, it works well and keeps you reading.If you were worried this would be just another Dead Girl book–one in which the main character’s personal journey is centered entirely on an unknowable dead girl–you will be pleased to know it’s not. Though Lost is obsessed with controlling Kyra’s narrative and Corey tells us of the Kyra she knew, the dearly departed still tells her own story through her letters to Corey and a diary she hid from Lost. Like I said, storytelling-focused story. If you were a fan of Hamilton‘s storytelling theme, Before I Let Go will be your new best friend.Nijkamp’s chosen setting of tiny Lost Creek, Alaska is brilliantly written and appropriately claustrophobic. It more than fulfills the two needs for such a setting: a sparse town with only a handful of places to be and a small population of recognizable, individual people. My mom grew up in a town like Lost Creek and regularly tells stories about it. The way Corey talks about lost is almost identical to the way Mom talks about her hometown when we visit and she points out all three notable places.The people of Lost are what gives the novel its tinge of horror and suspense too! They–especially Kyra’s parents–are so determined to protect Kyra’s “legacy” that they unite into a single terrifying entity when Corey opposes them. For God’s sake, they just stood there and watched when the cabin Corey was staying in caught fire and she had to escape through a window. A town and population like this could come right out of a Stephen King novel.The legacy Lost wants so desperately to protect? Kyra’s painted prophecies. The return of mining work to town via a new investor, specific people and places Corey visits throughout, her own manner of death,… She predicted these and more in her art. It’s not paranormal or magical realism, simply the unexplainable. Among other unexplainable things: WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH AARON’S CABIN?But the strongest idea at the core of Before I Let Go are deconstructions of “suffering for your art” and the misconceptions surrounding mentally ill creatives. Kyra painted to cope with her bipolar disorder, not to indulge any passion for art. Once Lost discovered her painted prophecies, they came to depend on her only for her art and isolated her in a abandoned spa. Since she only painted during her manic episodes and her medication helped control her moods, they withheld her meds. If the painted visions required she suffered for her art, then so be it. They’d make sure she suffered. She’d already foretold her own death, after all.Think about some of the mentally ill creatives throughout history, like Sylvia Plath and Ernest Hemingway. Both wrote works of literary genius and both committed suicide when they were relatively young. Had they gotten effective treatment, they may have lived much longer and produced much more work. But would it have been as well-received as the work they made with poor treatment or none at all?Like the people of Lost, we simply accept the relationship between their work and lack of treatment without much thought. We don’t wonder whether they created due to passion or simply to cope, or how they felt about what they created. A mentally ill creative might make something they dislike or nothing at all with poor/no treatment and only make something they truly love/are passionate about when getting good treatment–or nothing at all if they’re like Kyra and only create to cope. No art is ever worth the suffering of the artist. Them getting treatment is more important than any art they make without it.Because Lost never thought about any of the above, Kyra died. How many lives have prematurely ended because we didn’t think about any of this either?Nijkamp’s debut This Is Where It Ends has set a high standard by spending over a year on the New York Times bestseller list, but Before I Let Go has it beat. It’s a deeply layered, moving, and at times terrifying novel I’d teach to high school students if I could stomach teaching. It’s not emotionally easy to read, but you’d be missing brilliance if you skipped out on this visceral reading experience.
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  • Kristin
    January 1, 1970
    ORIGINAL POST: http://www.nerdprobs.com/books/book-r...**A copy of this book was provided by the publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.**Having read a book by author Marieke Nijkamp before I knew I had to check out her new novel Before I Let Go. A completely different vibe, but a mystery which is right up my alley. One thing I will give Nijkamp is that these two novels I have read of hers both touched on hard hitting topics that are typically taboo. The first was school shooti ORIGINAL POST: http://www.nerdprobs.com/books/book-r...**A copy of this book was provided by the publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.**Having read a book by author Marieke Nijkamp before I knew I had to check out her new novel Before I Let Go. A completely different vibe, but a mystery which is right up my alley. One thing I will give Nijkamp is that these two novels I have read of hers both touched on hard hitting topics that are typically taboo. The first was school shootings and Before I Let Go touched on mental health. I love reading stories that go above the norm and have you finding yourself in territories undiscovered. I know some about mental health and the struggles that people go through, but reading different takes on it always gives me more insight. Before I Let Go follows Corey as she returns home to her tiny home town of Lost, Alaska to visit her best friend Kyra. Only Kyra died two days before Corey's arrival in an apparent suicide. Corey is sad and expects to be welcomed with open arms by the residence that all know each other so well, but it turns out she is unwelcome. Now labeled an outside the story follows Corey as she tries to piece together what happen to her best friend to lead her to suicide and why the town is acting so strange. From the first step on Lost soil I was intrigued. Corey was met with so much animosity even before she questioned what was happening that you knew there was something sinister lying beneath the surface. Corey's character was strong and brave, especially for a teenage girl. I would not have been able to handle the situation quite like her. Normally I am not a fan of flashbacks, but this story would not have made much sense without. Between occasional chapters we got a glimpse of Kyra and Corey in the two years or so leading up to the current timeline. These flashbacks gave us a glimpse as to what could have led Kyra to suicide or why the town was acting so strange. I mentioned how Nijkamp talked about mental illness. Kyra suffered from bipolar disorder and some other mental health conditions that stem from that, such as a deep depression. The flashbacks gave witness to how those highs and lows affected those around her and why some people just could not understand her personality, making her almost a pariah in the community. As the story continued we found out more about how those who did not understand Kyra's mental illness misconstrued things and forced her into ideas and actions they felt were making her happy. All of these things are topics that most don't talk about, let along write books about, but Nijkamp never backs away from them. I loved Nijkamp's view of mental illness and the twisted story that weaved itself around Kyra and Corey. I never knew who to trust at each turn and found myself actually gasping at times and having to take just one more minute to find out what happen next. Needless to say I finished this book in two days. A real page turner. It even had a cult like vibe to it at times with the townsfolk, which is not typically the type of story I would enjoy, but somehow all these aspects fit together to make a truly interesting, deep, spine tingling mystery. While it may be labeled YA Fiction, I feel Before I Let Go is a good novel for anyone who likes mysteries and wants to be surprised at the end. Definitely pick up a copy.
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  • Olivia Farr
    January 1, 1970
    "Before I Let Go" was a pretty unique piece of YA fiction- I'm not sure how to categorize it, maybe as a psychological thriller. We follow Corey from the time she found out her BFF, Kyra, has died over the course of her short trip to Lost Creek, Alaska, the place she used to know as home. Corey left town several months ago to attend a boarding school, when her mother moved away. She was really sad to leave Kyra behind, but they promised to stay in touch and wait for each other- and they were alm "Before I Let Go" was a pretty unique piece of YA fiction- I'm not sure how to categorize it, maybe as a psychological thriller. We follow Corey from the time she found out her BFF, Kyra, has died over the course of her short trip to Lost Creek, Alaska, the place she used to know as home. Corey left town several months ago to attend a boarding school, when her mother moved away. She was really sad to leave Kyra behind, but they promised to stay in touch and wait for each other- and they were almost there. This is why Corey is shocked to hear that Kyra's death is considered suicidal (it is believed she looked for a crack in the ice and drowned).The story is told in pieces- we have the present events, events from the past few years of Kyra/Corey together, and letters which Kyra had written but not sent to Corey (plus some stylistic writing as if a screenplay). Together, it makes for an incredibly engaging story. We get to put together the pieces of Kyra and Corey separately and together through their friendship. There is a big disconnect between the town Corey left and the one she returns to. The whole story is shrouded in mystery and grief- and it had the feel of a thriller at times. The town and the people in it had a very surreal feel, almost like Stepford, where you know there has to be more to the story and it's really creepy and you're dying to figure out why. This book ended up being a quick read for me, primarily for that reason- I absolutely had to figure out what happened to Kyra and what would happen to Corey.The pace of this book is absolutely perfect, and the descriptions of Kyra really brought her to life. Corey was less well-developed, despite being the primary character. It was a really interesting format, where although being told from Corey's point-of-view, the character we get to know best and understand the most is Kyra. I also thought the depiction of bipolar disorder in this book was well done- it goes through examples of both her highs and her lows, plus some of her coping mechanisms and thoughts about the disease. It felt pretty genuine. The rest of the story felt more surreal, and considering that Kyra loved stories and fables, it almost felt like the book was it's own story (maybe enhanced in the retelling). I'm not saying that as a bad thing- it gave the overall tone an interesting quality that made it all a bit more of a mystery.Overall, I think this was a really intriguing and unique story along the lines of a psychological thriller. Please note that I received an ARC from the publisher through netgalley. All opinions are my own.
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  • Mandi Schneck
    January 1, 1970
    I've heard so much praise for Marieke Nijkamp and her book This Is Where It Ends, although I haven't read it. I might in the future, but as a Virginia Tech graduate, stories of school shootings just sit wrongly with me. Before I Let Go however, was my opportunity to discover what this author was all about, through a safer (to me) story line. This story does chronicle depression and suicide, so I wanted to note this in case this is not a safe story line for some.Before I Let Go follows Corey, a f I've heard so much praise for Marieke Nijkamp and her book This Is Where It Ends, although I haven't read it. I might in the future, but as a Virginia Tech graduate, stories of school shootings just sit wrongly with me. Before I Let Go however, was my opportunity to discover what this author was all about, through a safer (to me) story line. This story does chronicle depression and suicide, so I wanted to note this in case this is not a safe story line for some.Before I Let Go follows Corey, a former Alaska native who has moved to Canada for school. As she prepares to return to her former home to visit her best friend Kyra, she receives the startling news that Kyra has committed suicide. Heartbroken and confused, Corey decides to keep her plans intact, returning to Lost Creek to try to get answers about Kyra's mysterious death and attend her memorial. But upon arriving, Corey discovers that things are not quite right. She doesn't know her town anymore, or the people in it. And worst of all, she doesn't understand why they suddenly idolized Kyra, a previous outcast due to her mental illness and outbursts. When Corey starts asking questions, the townspeople turn on her, claiming that she doesn't understand and that she abandoned Kyra in her time of need. As Corey pieces together what happened, she comes to realize that Kyra became a tool for the townspeople as they forced her to prophesize the future through her depressive painting episodes. Kyra fell more and more into herself as they exploited her illness, ultimately giving in to her depression and trying to escape, but the people of Lost Creek would not let her. Corey tries to bring the truth to light, but the townspeople make an attempt on her life and try to chase her away. All that Corey has left of Kyra are some possessions she left hidden for Corey to find. This book was a mental rollercoaster, that's for sure. Told through letters, first person POV, and even script format, the emotion is raw and real. The plot itself was a little empty, but I think that was the point. It wanted to hone in on feelings versus actions. I will say the different formats of writing were confusing and difficult to piece together. I think it was also a little too drawn out, this took me a lot longer to read than I was expecting, and although that is common for heavy books, it was not THAT heavy that I needed over 10 days to read it.Overall Rating: 3.5 out of 5 StarsThanks to SOURCEBOOKS Fire for access to an advanced digital copy of this book! Before I Let Go releases on January 2nd, 2018!
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  • Keith Chawgo
    January 1, 1970
    The setting of the novel works and it is pretty much a fish out of water narrative as the character finds themselves in a small town of Lost Creek in Alaska. It has an interesting premise but at times the narration feels a bit forced and at times it is a story about nothingness and how it is hard to fit into a small town that is very closed knit. Though at times, it is interesting there are other times where I felt the story didn’t quite accomplish what it was setting out to do. There is a psych The setting of the novel works and it is pretty much a fish out of water narrative as the character finds themselves in a small town of Lost Creek in Alaska. It has an interesting premise but at times the narration feels a bit forced and at times it is a story about nothingness and how it is hard to fit into a small town that is very closed knit. Though at times, it is interesting there are other times where I felt the story didn’t quite accomplish what it was setting out to do. There is a psychiatric development in the story that doesn’t always ring true. I do have to say that Nijamp does create a mystery story and there is the overall feeling of dread and loss that creeps within the narrative that is very effective. The writing style has it’s own pacing and at times, I do feel that the average reader will need a little patience to work through the novel. The ending is a bit forced and doesn’t really have the pay off that you would hope would be a satisfying conclusion but it was a bit flat. Overall, it is very well written and feel that there is a definite audience out there for this but it is a book that is not for everyone. If you like a book that is full of atmosphere and an exotic location where you fill in the blanks yourself, then you really can’t do no wrong with this novel.
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