This Darkness Mine
Sasha Stone knows her place—first-chair clarinet, top of her class, and at the side of her oxford-wearing boyfriend. She’s worked her entire life to ensure that her path to Oberlin Conservatory as a star musician is perfectly paved.But suddenly there’s a fork in the road, in the shape of Isaac Harver. Her body shifts toward him when he walks by, her skin misses his touch even though she’s never known it, and she relishes the smell of him—smoke, beer, and trouble—all the things she’s avoided to get where she is. Even worse, every time he’s near Sasha, her heart stops, literally. Why does he know her so well—too well—and she doesn’t know him at all?Sasha discovers that her by-the-book life began by ending another’s: the twin sister she absorbed in the womb. But that doesn’t explain the gaps of missing time in her practice schedule or the memories she has of things she certainly never did with Isaac. As Sasha loses her much-cherished control, her life—and heart—become more entangled with Isaac. Armed with the knowledge that her heart might not be hers alone, Sasha must decide what she’s willing to do—and who she’s willing to hurt—to take it back.Edgar Award–winning author Mindy McGinnis delivers a dark and gripping psychological thriller about a girl at war with herself, and what it really means to be good or bad.

This Darkness Mine Details

TitleThis Darkness Mine
Author
LanguageEnglish
ReleaseOct 10th, 2017
Publisher Katherine Tegen Books
ISBN-139780062561596
Rating
GenreYoung Adult, Mystery, Contemporary, Thriller

This Darkness Mine Review

  • Hailey (HaileyinBookland)
    January 1, 1970
    I never, ever say that I hate a book because I love books so much and it feels so extreme but oh my goodness I hated this book. There were no redeeming qualities, it was weird as hell (and I'm usually all for weird). The writing and plot were so confusing??? Also I found it to be problematic which made me very uncomfortable. I'm really sad I didn't like this since I enjoyed The Female of the Species so much but this was just... ugh. If there's any bright side it's the fact that I read it so quic I never, ever say that I hate a book because I love books so much and it feels so extreme but oh my goodness I hated this book. There were no redeeming qualities, it was weird as hell (and I'm usually all for weird). The writing and plot were so confusing??? Also I found it to be problematic which made me very uncomfortable. I'm really sad I didn't like this since I enjoyed The Female of the Species so much but this was just... ugh. If there's any bright side it's the fact that I read it so quickly.
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  • Kai
    January 1, 1970
    "I had a sister. She was never born, and she never died."If you’ve read the title and seen the cover you should know what’s coming. I’d recommend you do not read this review and just go in blindly, as did I. I don’t want to tell you anything that could spoil this experience for you. But if you still want to know about it, here you go:This is just as dark and twisted as the title promises. Probably even darker and more twisted. Believe me, it’s crazy, it’s sick, it’s disgusting and shocking. It’s "I had a sister. She was never born, and she never died."If you’ve read the title and seen the cover you should know what’s coming. I’d recommend you do not read this review and just go in blindly, as did I. I don’t want to tell you anything that could spoil this experience for you. But if you still want to know about it, here you go:This is just as dark and twisted as the title promises. Probably even darker and more twisted. Believe me, it’s crazy, it’s sick, it’s disgusting and shocking. It’s exactly what I wanted this book to be and I’m glad Mindy McGinnis went this far. YA literature can sometimes shed its protective skin, put its finger on the wound and really cause the ugly and hurtful things to come out. That’s what this book does.It’s probably making love to Darren Aronofsky’s Black Swan right this second, that’s how disturbing it is.The writing alone is piercing and cruel. Impeccable and cold. Easy for me to fall in love with, but I’m not sure everyone will feel the same about this book. I; however, am deeply, deeply enchanted. I had high expectations for this book, for Mindy McGinnis, even though this is the first book of hers that I’ve read. She met all of these expectations. Again, her narrative is on a level that I can only dream of. It’s smart and sarcastic, it’s funny in a macabre way, it’s unexpected and beautiful. This woman can write, this much is obvious. I can’t wait to read more.The characters are captivating. Most side characters are relatable, which they have to be because the main character is everything but. They have depth, they are flawed, they are funny and deserve our compassion. Well, most of them. Others are morbid and cold, most of all Sasha Stone, the main character. She is the picture perfect. But a cold one. She’s manipulative and she’ll cut you if you get too close. Severely. She’ll surprise you again and again with her wickedness, but you can never be sure if it’s the crazy speaking out of her or if it’s real. That’s what makes it genius.This Darkness Mine made me feel so many things. Disgust and shock, for sure. But I also took please from this weirdly alluring book. It’s definitely one of my favourite books this year.Find more of my books on Instagram
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  • Lala BooksandLala
    January 1, 1970
    wtf
  • Elise (TheBookishActress)
    January 1, 1970
    I don't know if this is a book you can "review". I feel like I'll be spoiling you by saying a single thing. Besides, how can I describe this book? How can I even begin to describe some of the fucked up things that happened in this book?I think there are two things you need to know about this book. First of all, it doesn't depend on the reveal. There isn't really one concrete reveal - rather, there are several that create a web of craziness. The other thing you need to know is that this book is r I don't know if this is a book you can "review". I feel like I'll be spoiling you by saying a single thing. Besides, how can I describe this book? How can I even begin to describe some of the fucked up things that happened in this book?I think there are two things you need to know about this book. First of all, it doesn't depend on the reveal. There isn't really one concrete reveal - rather, there are several that create a web of craziness. The other thing you need to know is that this book is really messed up. There are points where I genuinely felt like my deepest fears were being unwound on a deep level, just to unsettle me. I don't know if there's just one element of this book that makes it so creepy and addicting, but what stood out to me was the writing. There's a crisp quality to the prose that fits Sasha's voice perfectly. I don't even know how to explain how this book fucked with my mind. The blurb is telling you antihero, but I don't know if that's an accurate description of Sasha. Sasha is a terrible person. But she's a very well-written terrible person. She has this odd blend of sarcasm and genuine evil - I'd love her at one minute for her delicious inner monologue, then hate myself for ever enjoying such a terrible person as a character. It was really an experience.I think what's interesting about this book is how it echoes all those old classics about Some Privileged Asshole Acting Out. You know that genre? The one about really rich privileged men being asshats that somehow reads like tragedy porn and escapism at the same exact time? This Darkness Mine is like a more self-aware version of that genre. And I kind of love it. I think Mindy McGinnis is one of the most self-aware authors I've ever read - this book knows it's unrealistic and makes up for it by being believable as fuck. We've all met people like Sasha, much as we'd like to pretend we haven't. I think that's what I'm going to take away from this book, in a way - the intense feeling of realism that somehow stayed around even when I tried to escape this book. Blog | Goodreads | Twitter | Youtube
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  • Korrina (OwlCrate)
    January 1, 1970
    This was one of the weirdest books I've ever read, but I highly enjoyed it. The writing was dark, sexy and scary. And it featured one of the most messed up main characters I've ever read. Mindy McGinnis never fails to surprise and shock me.
  • ☘Misericordia☘ ✺❂❤❣
    January 1, 1970
    It's a mess. I'm not going into too many details but it's like a retell of some 80s movie. Beware of spoilers in further review.Q: I can’t wait to stop being myself. (c)We have an evil twin? The twin supposedly consumed by our protagonist while in the womb? And is up to her teens digging out bones (WTF!?) of that unborn twin from her gums! I'm not going to go into all the biology details on how things work a bit differently in real life as opposed to this cannibal dream on steroids. There are ch It's a mess. I'm not going into too many details but it's like a retell of some 80s movie. Beware of spoilers in further review.Q: I can’t wait to stop being myself. (c)We have an evil twin? The twin supposedly consumed by our protagonist while in the womb? And is up to her teens digging out bones (WTF!?) of that unborn twin from her gums! I'm not going to go into all the biology details on how things work a bit differently in real life as opposed to this cannibal dream on steroids. There are chimaeras but they don't go on kidnapping/hitchhiking their own bodies/cherries/boyfriends from themselves. Or taking anyone's bones from anywhere. It's like, uh, not even cutesy. I felt an acute need to recommend the author to retake their biology 101. And the parents? Totally unbelievable. Your daughter comes in and says her twin lives on, in her. And you? Righty: Q: “You’re going to tear this house apart,” Dad yells at me... (c)Q: “Honey, do you need anything? What’s wrong? Can I get you something to eat?” Mom’s hands are on my shoulders... (c) Like, another evil twin, maybe?Q: There is a fight. For once I’m not participating. (c)And the girl is rather disconnectedish, because how else would one describe someone in ER having this discussion:Q: “I can’t die—”“You’re not going to,” Jones interrupts me.“—listening to this music,” I finish. “It’s unbearable. (c) And in the hospital, after a life-threatening event you interview your mental health expert:Q: “Did you always want to be a social worker?” I ask....“We really should be talking about you instead,”...“What kind of a degree do you have? Where did you go to school? How long does it take to get certified in what you do?” (c)Yeah, right. Why our protagonist wasn't certified, I'm not sure. Maybe that psychologist should have paid attention in classes. Might have retained her job, at least.And the Q: I give Shanna to Isaac, and she quivers in his hands, happy to be home. (c) part is pure crap. Q: I didn’t get the whole heart, to be honest. I didn’t even get a decent chunk, I guess. What I actually gave to Isaac was a handful of soft tissue and gristle, the cord from the LVAD and a few bone chips from my sternum. But it did the trick, scared him so badly that he didn’t notice that I put the knife in his other hand before I passed out. (c) Like, WTF?I know, I'm being nasty here. It's just that I don't like stupidish books. Honestly, if we have to get an evil twin, there could have been a proper buildup done to introduce them. Not just Q: “She’s here and there are things that she wants.” (c)Q:There’s nothing better than letting your brain go dead. I use it so much, taxing it to the limit with facts, theories, definitions—whatever I need to regurgitate for the next test. Then I push everything I dedicated my mind to for the week out the back door to make room for the next batch, the next test, a red A+ bleeding onto the white of whatever paper I wrote last. (c) I really hate this description of both music and studying. There is a lot more to them than the author gives credit.Q:I can get a degree in psychology as well as a performance degree from their conservatory, something that Dad thinks is hilarious. He told me if my goal was to drive people crazy with my constant playing, I’d already accomplished it. (c)Q:Dad tried to steer me toward an economics major, telling me that music might be my passion but I needed to think rationally about employment. He said taxes only sound boring and can provide a reliable income. I sat through an hour lecture about how there’s a sense of calm to be found in columns of integers, and that numbers never lie. So I found a copy of our cell phone bill and highlighted all the calls from his account to an unfamiliar number that always happened right around the time he got off work. I mailed it to his office with a Post-it attached that said, “You’re right, Dad! Numbers don’t lie. Love, Sasha.”He left me alone after that. Like pretty much all the time. (c) Blackmailing your father into not steering you into a career you don't like? I have to remember it.Q:Heath and I aren’t like that, never have been. There’s a calm assurance in our relationship: he is my boyfriend; I am his girlfriend. ... We make out because we’re supposed to. That’s what couples do.The clinical nature of our relationship doesn’t bother me, the hard and fast definitions of what we are to each other reading more like a contractual agreement than anything bordering on affection. We’re cutouts on top of a wedding cake, fingers interlaced but bodies permanently frozen far apart from each other, our smiles painted on. And who cares, really? Wedding cakes are supposed to have toppers. Girls like me are supposed to have boyfriends. Checkmark. (c) Wow. It's probably the most boring teen affair I've ever read or seen. Ever.Q:I know how that will play out. Mom will cry; Dad will yell; I will stand like a pillar in a storm, demanding truth. (c) A talking pillar. A demanding truth one. Q:“Oh my God,” I say, the truth hitting me like a surprise stinger after you thought the song was over.We’re not facing each other in the ultrasound.Because even then we each wanted different things. (c) L. Logic.Q:I must have scared Heath off last week. He hasn’t come over since he bolted at the sight of my bra, but I’m happier with Vivaldi’s company anyway... (c) Good to know.Q:“Because I just told you the biggest secret of my life,” I say. “Maybe the only one I’ve ever had.”“Right, the one about how your evil twin is making you wet for the bad boy.” (c)?Q:Here too lies an explanation for why my perfect boyfriend with symmetrical hair and a wardrobe of nonaggressive colors does nothing for me. He wouldn’t. How could he stir the love of this passionate girl, whose emotions are dark slashes on paper? There’s a delicious thrill in seeing her words, the pent-up violence that I incapacitated long ago with a simple swing of my foot. My twin in the flesh would be intimidating; I can see that. But it says something that I undid her, in the beginning. (c)So, the question begs why does she have the boyfriend who does nothing for her?Q:I slip the phone back under the pillow out of habit, not for secrecy. Mom and Dad were pissed to discover it... But I got to keep it, because as Dad said, “What more can she do?”Oh, I can do lots more, Dad. Lots and lots more. (c) Are we to expect a repeat performance?
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  • Trina (Between Chapters)
    January 1, 1970
    This was really not for me and not what I expected, but it was readable and I understand the appeal this type of story has for some readers.Reasons you may like this: -If you love unlikable characters. The main character is suuuuper judgmental. She has a horrible mindset about sex, there is some girl hate portrayed, she's just a crappy character. I had no problem understanding that this was a character flaw though, and did not feel like the book was shining any of this in a good light. I felt th This was really not for me and not what I expected, but it was readable and I understand the appeal this type of story has for some readers.Reasons you may like this: -If you love unlikable characters. The main character is suuuuper judgmental. She has a horrible mindset about sex, there is some girl hate portrayed, she's just a crappy character. I had no problem understanding that this was a character flaw though, and did not feel like the book was shining any of this in a good light. I felt the whole point of the book is how this model of "perfection" isn't perfect.-If you love strange, dark fiction that leaves you with as many questions as answers.-If you like thrillers that revolve around the question 'is this real or in her head?'Reasons you may not like this:-If you hate unlikable main characters. -In fact, most of the characters are awful. There are microaggressions toward race, disability, and mental illness portrayed. Again, I felt that these were called out, but they are present. I really have no idea if any of the representation is accurate or problematic overall.-If you are triggered by graphic descriptions of injuries (some self injury), medical procedures, or hospitalization.-If you cannot easily suspend disbelief while reading. This book deals with a real thing in a very fictional way, which is made clear at one point, but if you can't get around this you probably won't like it.-If you need concrete answers.My thoughts:So, y'all know I'm a Mindy fangirl, and I continue to be so. No, this is not my favorite book, but what I liked about it most was seeing more of her writing range. The style and characters are distinct from her previous books (it's less of a social commentary). I also liked how the book thoroughly explored its premise. It treats it as though it could be as the character sees it, as a medical condition, a psychological condition, or even none of the above. I did enjoy the ending, it packed that extra punch I needed for this genre.However, because of the timing of when I read this, I was easily triggered by the medical and injury aspects and it was a very difficult read for me. I also would have preferred more development of side characters, especially the love interest. And though I don't automatically dislike unlikable characters, in this instance Sasha was just too unlikable for me most of the time. It was very hard for me to care about or be interested what was happening to her.This really reminded me of Another Little Piece in some ways, so if you've read that book, your feelings on it may be a good gauge of how you'd enjoy this one.Also of note, since all of Mindy's previous books deal with rape or sexual assault, it's worth noting that this one does not. That may make it a more approachable read for some (if you aren't triggered by the above things), or less so if that's what you love about her writing.
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  • Christian
    January 1, 1970
    This book made my heart ache - and if you've read it, then you know exactly what i mean by that.rtc, as in, I hope I can manage to gather my thoughts on all that. My first ever Mindy McGinnis! I'm ready, I don't know what to expect, I blame Kai for this.
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  • alice (arctic books)
    January 1, 1970
    Holy fuck. I'm not even sure what the fuck I read but I know I loved it. More coherent review to come.
  • Sarah
    January 1, 1970
    (I received an advance copy of this book for free. Thanks to HarperCollins and Edelweiss.)This was an interesting contemporary story, about a girl who believed that her heart belonged to her dead twin sister.Sasha was one hell of a character, and it was so hard to know whether to believe her or not! She was so dead set that her heart wasn’t hers, and that her dead twin sister was controlling her by it, and it was difficult to know whether her beliefs were real or delusion.The storyline in this s (I received an advance copy of this book for free. Thanks to HarperCollins and Edelweiss.)This was an interesting contemporary story, about a girl who believed that her heart belonged to her dead twin sister.Sasha was one hell of a character, and it was so hard to know whether to believe her or not! She was so dead set that her heart wasn’t hers, and that her dead twin sister was controlling her by it, and it was difficult to know whether her beliefs were real or delusion.The storyline in this started off being about Sasha and her dead twin sister Shanna (who died in the womb), and how Sasha felt that Shanna was controlling her, and even leaving her messages. Shanna apparently loved this boy called Isaac, who was a bit of a bad boy, and kept taking control of Sasha’s body in order to sneak out and see him.The second part of the story was about (view spoiler)[ Sasha being diagnosed with a congenital heart defect that required her to have a transplant, and about her antics on the cardiac ward. (hide spoiler)]The brilliant thing about this book was how it was so hard to know whether to believe Sasha or not, and the times when she embraced being Shanna and acted out. It was still a little weird though.The ending to this was quite interesting, and it did tie things up to some extent.7 out of 10
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  • ambsreads
    January 1, 1970
    I received an eARC but all opinions/thoughts are my own. BUDDY READING with someone who took three days to reply to me. You've been exposed SolomonOne word to describe this book?Fucked. I have never been both utterly disturbed and confused when reading a book. This Darkness Mine manages to successfully do this, however. I was stunned. Completely stunned into silence. I started to get really into this book while I was waiting at the train station to pick up Caitlin, and I'm pretty sure everyone i I received an eARC but all opinions/thoughts are my own. BUDDY READING with someone who took three days to reply to me. You've been exposed SolomonOne word to describe this book?Fucked. I have never been both utterly disturbed and confused when reading a book. This Darkness Mine manages to successfully do this, however. I was stunned. Completely stunned into silence. I started to get really into this book while I was waiting at the train station to pick up Caitlin, and I'm pretty sure everyone in my surrounding area was confused while I whispered "what" to myself over and over. The premise of this book was confusing but reading it was even more messed up. I couldn't grasp some aspects and since I did most of the reading of this at night I was afraid to fall asleep in case I had had a twin in the womb (lmao I checked, I didn't). Sasha Stone is a good girl though. She plays the clarinet, is in the first chair, and is on her way to being accepted to a prestigious music school. She and her boyfriend fit and she gets good marks. She's the definition of a goody-goody who follows strict rules. Things start to get weird though when a boy who doesn't fit her definition of life starts acting as if they have a thing, and that she gave him her number. Something she knows she didn't do. It's here the book takes a turn I didn't expect. A turn that had me staring at my phone like what?! Shit gets weird. It gets wild and I could barely keep up with the story.There were boring bits, which had me rolling my eyes and wanting a lot more crazy. Though the crazy would hit and I would be begging for the book to return to the normal because seriously. However, the writing style was brilliant. It was a tad jerky in some parts, scenes suddenly changing but that could be because it isn't the final version. I have so many questions for the author. How did they create this idea? A book that still has me jumping in the dark and making sure there are no messages from random boys in my phone (there aren't, boys are lame). I recommend you all check out this book when it releases - especially if you're looking for a weird book.
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  • Mlpmom (Book Reviewer)
    January 1, 1970
    McGinnis has become an author that I can count on to be blunt, bold, and to hold no punches. When the going gets tough her heroines are gritty and they know how to get down and dirty.Her foray in the the YA genre of mystery thriller went off without a hitch. This book was riddled with mystery and intrigue and always left the reader wondering right from wrong and innocent from guilty. Numerous times throughout this story I started to question the heroine herself and had to stop and wonder who exa McGinnis has become an author that I can count on to be blunt, bold, and to hold no punches. When the going gets tough her heroines are gritty and they know how to get down and dirty.Her foray in the the YA genre of mystery thriller went off without a hitch. This book was riddled with mystery and intrigue and always left the reader wondering right from wrong and innocent from guilty. Numerous times throughout this story I started to question the heroine herself and had to stop and wonder who exactly the bad guys were and who were the good, if there were any at all. This left me questioning, reeling, and like most of McGinnis's stories, always wanting more. *ARC was provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.*
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  • Jasmine from How Useful It Is
    January 1, 1970
    About: This Darkness Mine is a young adult thriller written by Mindy McGinnis. It will be published on 10/10/17 by Katherine Tegen Books, an imprint of HarperCollins, 384 pages. The genres are young adult, mystery/thrillers, contemporary, and fiction. My Experience: I started reading This Darkness Mine on 8/9/17 and stopped at 68% on 8/14/17. This book started out interesting. I like Sasha’s strict scheduling to achieving her goals of being valedictorian, first chair with her music, and to guara About: This Darkness Mine is a young adult thriller written by Mindy McGinnis. It will be published on 10/10/17 by Katherine Tegen Books, an imprint of HarperCollins, 384 pages. The genres are young adult, mystery/thrillers, contemporary, and fiction. My Experience: I started reading This Darkness Mine on 8/9/17 and stopped at 68% on 8/14/17. This book started out interesting. I like Sasha’s strict scheduling to achieving her goals of being valedictorian, first chair with her music, and to guarantee her entrance into music school. I like her friends Brooke and Lilly, especially Brooke and her uncensored interests. I like how music is being embedded everywhere in the story. Then the story move into hospital stays that I find lack of suspense and thrill for me to read. I do like the blunt reality of how patients wait to receive a heart transplant. The lack of sugarcoating is actually a breath of fresh air.In this book, readers will follow first person point of view of Sasha Stone, a valedictorian with a plan. She stays on a path and focuses on doing everything good to obtain success. Sasha has a boyfriend, Heath since middle school and they have a routine. Out of the blue, bad boy with cigarette smells, Isaac Harver texts her and asks to meet up. When they hold hands, the process was smooth as if they had done it many times before. Her body walks to Isaac before her mind makes the decision to take a step back. Isaac is not on Sasha’s agenda, so how he becomes part of her life is a mystery. One day Sasha was to bring a baby picture for the senior school year book and found a picture of her ultrasound. In it, the ultrasound shows that she has a twin but the twin, Shanna, was never born or died. The twin was absorbed into Sasha while in the womb, so now it appears that her sister is inside of her and they both want different things. When Isaac comes to visit and Sasha doesn’t go to meet him, Sasha ends up falling out of the window 20ft high to stop Isaac from leaving. In the hospital, Sasha learns that Shanna may not exist but in fact she may have some kind of heart disease and require a transplant. Sasha still believe Shanna exists despite what the doctor says and the impending heart transplant… the ending is a mystery.This book is well written and the lack of sugarcoating to what’s going on at the hospital is surprisingly funny. I like the bluntness in the characters’ way of expressing their thoughts. At the same time, I lose interest in reading this book because hospital stays and impending death due to health reasons just sags my excitement. I can’t handle reading about cancer patients so I can’t handle reading about patients with heart problems. I’m stopping at 68%. I still recommend this book to everyone because it’s good to be aware of the reality of a situation when doctors won’t tell you because they want you to have hope.Pro: cover, personality, music, blunt, humorCon: (I have been unintentionally reading a lot of mental health books lately and I need a break) Nothing against the book.. I didn’t realized this book deals with it.I rate it 4 stars!***Disclaimer: Many thanks to the author Mindy McGinnis, publisher Katherine Tegen Books, and Edelweiss for the opportunity to read and review. Please be assured that my opinions are honest.xoxo, Jasmine
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  • Kit✵
    January 1, 1970
    This sounds messed up.I want it.
  • Taylor
    January 1, 1970
    UPDATED REVIEW: "I'm digging splinters out of my gums again." From its’ disconcerting opening line, This Darkness Mine quickly establishes an ominous tone. One that makes it vividly clear that this isn’t your average lighthearted thriller.Centering on Sasha Stone, an intense, Type-A first chair, whose grades are “a long vowel-filled exhalation of superiority,” this psychological stunner presents one of 2017's most unlikable – and unreliable – narrators. Seriously, even her fictitious friends a UPDATED REVIEW: "I'm digging splinters out of my gums again." From its’ disconcerting opening line, This Darkness Mine quickly establishes an ominous tone. One that makes it vividly clear that this isn’t your average lighthearted thriller.Centering on Sasha Stone, an intense, Type-A first chair, whose grades are “a long vowel-filled exhalation of superiority,” this psychological stunner presents one of 2017's most unlikable – and unreliable – narrators. Seriously, even her fictitious friends and family don’t seem to like her. In fact, the only person who appears to be #TeamSasha is the stereotypical, leather-jacket wearing badass, Isaac, and Sasha doesn’t even remember her interactions with him.And it’s those forgotten interactions that lead to our very first twist. Where are those memories? Are they real? And if they’re not, why does her body react as if they were?During her quest for answers Sasha discovers a confusing sonogram, which leads her to a chilling discovery: "...I have -- or had a sister. A sister who wasn't born, and never died." Confirmed by her parents, the truth of Sasha’s origin story finally comes to light. A light that’s quickly smothered by the dark. Because as soon as Sasha starts to believe it, her reabsorbed twin starts to assume power and fight back for the life that was taken from her. In their fight for control, Sasha’s unhinged sister makes some seriously deranged decisions (the stuff of nightmares, y’all), which soon shatters Sasha’s perfect life.As new twists and repercussions from said actions emerge, we’re introduced to a new setting, new characters, and a fresh sense of manipulation. After a while we start to wonder who’s strings are really being pulled? Sasha’s? The twin’s? Or ours?Overall...This action-packed mystery is well-written and chock-full of bold choices. Filled with unlikable characters it provides an addictive ride till the very end. Much like it's cover art, I suspect this thriller’s fanbase will be slashed down the middle with lovers on one side and haters on another. And although it’s dark, I ultimately landed on the first side. Now, “how does that make you feel?” Original Review: "This thing of darkness I acknowledge mine." Wow. This twisted book is unlike anything I have ever read. Much like it's cover art, I suspect it's fanbase will be slashed down the middle with lovers on one side and haters on another. I personally fall on the first side. How does that make you feel? RTC.
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  • Evie
    January 1, 1970
    I'm going to have to step away and gather my thoughts before I write a proper review, because this book blew my mind and I'm still looking for the pieces.In short, Mindy is yet to disappoint me. This is probably my favorite book of hers by far, and I love how thickly dark it was, even though it didn't seem like it was going to be at first, you know? It's such a twisted, complex story. I loved it!
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  • Jen Ryland
    January 1, 1970
    If you love books that are REALLY out-there, then you should definitely give this one a try.I did, and This Darkness Mine was a bit too weird for me. As the blurb indicates, Sasha is a high-achieving high school student who suddenly she finds she has done things she doesn't remember doing, is attracted to a boy she doesn't remember being attracted to, etc.As the blurb also indicates, Sasha finds out that she had a twin in the womb, a twin who died early on in the pregnancy and whose body was abs If you love books that are REALLY out-there, then you should definitely give this one a try.I did, and This Darkness Mine was a bit too weird for me. As the blurb indicates, Sasha is a high-achieving high school student who suddenly she finds she has done things she doesn't remember doing, is attracted to a boy she doesn't remember being attracted to, etc.As the blurb also indicates, Sasha finds out that she had a twin in the womb, a twin who died early on in the pregnancy and whose body was absorbed by Sasha's. (Note: this is an Actual Thing: Google "Vanishing Twin Syndrome." The vanishing twin gets absorbed by the mother or the remaining twin.)While I applaud this book for having a character with memory loss NOT caused by amnesia, and while I usually love twin stories, the idea of this absorbed/missing twin suddenly controlling Sasha and her love life was just a tad too woo-woo for me.I can see on my Goodreads feed that a few people have loved this, so you do you. If this appeals to you, read it and tell me what you thought! Curious to know if this shakes out as mental illness book like this 2017 book with a kind of similar premise or as a thriller....Read more of my reviews on JenRyland.com or check out my Bookstagram!I received a free advance copy of this book from the publisher for possible review.
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  • Stacee
    January 1, 1970
    2.5 stars Psychological thrillers with hints of unreliable narrators are my jam and the synopsis of this book was 100000000% everything I could have wanted...sadly I was disappointed. Sasha is an interesting character. She’s hard working and ambitious and sort of a robot. However, she’s horrible and rude and I had a really hard time rooting for her. Of course I loved Isaac and thought he deserved way better than what happened to him. There are a few snarky characters who provide some levity, but 2.5 stars Psychological thrillers with hints of unreliable narrators are my jam and the synopsis of this book was 100000000% everything I could have wanted...sadly I was disappointed. Sasha is an interesting character. She’s hard working and ambitious and sort of a robot. However, she’s horrible and rude and I had a really hard time rooting for her. Of course I loved Isaac and thought he deserved way better than what happened to him. There are a few snarky characters who provide some levity, but this journey is seriously all about Sasha. Plot wise, I legit had no idea wtf was going on and I loved it. Parts felt really jumbled and convoluted. My main complaint was that there wasn’t enough of an explanation at the ending. I simultaneously like that and hate it. Overall it was a quick read and I was somewhat captivated by it, but there was just something that didn’t click with me. **Huge thanks to Katherine Tegen Books for providing the arc free of charge**
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  • Cindy ✩☽ Savage Queen ♔
    January 1, 1970
    Cover reveal definitely seems to give off that edgy/thriller vib ---Given the brilliance that was The Female of the Species, I must say I have high hopes for this one
  • Emma
    January 1, 1970
    dnf @ 67%.this is honestly one of the most bizarre things I've ever read........but sadly I do not mean that in a good way. I LOVED McGinnis's The Female of the Species, but this one was a confusing mess.
  • Hollis
    January 1, 1970
    I honestly wish I knew what to say about this book. This is my third experience with McGinnis' work so I already knew she's unpredictable. That every book is so different from the other. While A MADNESS SO DISCREET didn't work for me, THE FEMALE OF THE SPECIES did. THIS DARKNESS MINE, however, I just don't know. "I was asking about getting abortions in bio. So of course this means I'm pregnant.""Uh, except for the whole you're-a-virgin thing. When they showed us those pics of syphilis in sixth g I honestly wish I knew what to say about this book. This is my third experience with McGinnis' work so I already knew she's unpredictable. That every book is so different from the other. While A MADNESS SO DISCREET didn't work for me, THE FEMALE OF THE SPECIES did. THIS DARKNESS MINE, however, I just don't know. "I was asking about getting abortions in bio. So of course this means I'm pregnant.""Uh, except for the whole you're-a-virgin thing. When they showed us those pics of syphilis in sixth grade they might as well have signed you up for nun school."This book is about a perfect girl, the good girl, with a hidden streak of rebelliousness that increases over time. She starts losing moments. And then realizes there's another person living inside her, who is taking ownership of some of her nights; the twin that she never knew existed because she.. absorbed her in the womb. Every piece but her heart.All imperfections glare in the spotlight.And there begins this descent into Sasha trying to coexist with a presence that lives in her heart, who leaves commentary on her life in text messages, scrawled words on exam papers, and in tangling with the local bad boy despite Sasha having a boyfriend.But things get even stranger from there. To the point where it becomes a whole different book. And after you've adjusted to that.. it becomes something else again. It was just too much. Had McGinnis kept to one direction, or even two, this might have worked. Because it's weird and creepy and could've been perfect in it's own dark way. But.. yeah, too much."I can't die--""You're not going to.""-- listening to this music. It's unbearable."I'll probably still pick up future releases from this author because it seems every other one I read is a hit for me. And I love her writing. It's compelling, brutal, witty, and twisty. However THIS DARKNESS MINE was just too many of too much.. especially when you're forced to experience it all from a completely unabashedly unsympathetically selfish character. I've heard girls adopt the cajoling tone to calm down their man, an upward lilt with a flirtatious accent that changes the subject. I say his name like a brick wall. One he can run into and break his damn face on.It was a wild ride but not one I'll ever want to repeat.1.75 "I've had battlements around my feelings for so long I don't know how to react to bare honesty" stars** I received an ARC from Edelweiss and the publisher (thank you!) in exchange for an honest review. **
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  • Justine
    January 1, 1970
    3.5 starsThis is a really hard book to rate. The writing is very good. The characters, although for the most part unlikeable, are nicely fleshed out and balance each other well in the story. The story itself is a real doozy though.The summary isn't really a very accurate description of what the story is actually about. This is a dark and descriptive narrative of a teenager who is severely unstable, dangerously so, and her mental illness has apparently gone completely unnoticed up to now. There a 3.5 starsThis is a really hard book to rate. The writing is very good. The characters, although for the most part unlikeable, are nicely fleshed out and balance each other well in the story. The story itself is a real doozy though.The summary isn't really a very accurate description of what the story is actually about. This is a dark and descriptive narrative of a teenager who is severely unstable, dangerously so, and her mental illness has apparently gone completely unnoticed up to now. There are some very disturbing scenes, and yes, I can see why some people would have difficulty reading this.That said, it is an engrossing read, and Sasha Stone is a complicated and frightening character - a bit like Glenn Close's character in Fatal Attraction - interesting and normal looking from afar, but toxic and dangerous up close.
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  • Shannon (It Starts At Midnight)
    January 1, 1970
    You can find the full review and all the fancy and/or randomness that accompanies it at It Starts at Midnight I... have no idea what to make of this book. This may be one of the hardest reviews I have written. I feel bad because I want to say more, and I feel like this review won't even be helpful, but I am going to do my best. Here are some things I can tell you about my experience with this book: It's very dark, and quite twisted. The title doesn't lie, this is not going to give you a case of You can find the full review and all the fancy and/or randomness that accompanies it at It Starts at Midnight I... have no idea what to make of this book. This may be one of the hardest reviews I have written. I feel bad because I want to say more, and I feel like this review won't even be helpful, but I am going to do my best. Here are some things I can tell you about my experience with this book: It's very dark, and quite twisted. The title doesn't lie, this is not going to give you a case of the chuckles. I read this book in one day, which means I was unable to put it down. This is a rarity for me, so it says a lot about the author's ability to lure a reader in, for sure! I was/am/always will be kind of confused? Like- I get most of the story, I do. But I am not wholly sure of everything, and I am kind of a more concrete thinker and I want someone to tell me, firmly, what the hell happened. No seriously, this was messed up. In a mostly good way. I think. Bottom Line: If you like books that don't shy away from the dark stuff, and that also may leave your mind reeling a bit, this is the book for you. Mindy's writing is on point as always, and the book is absolutely addictive. I'm just not sure I know what even happened.*Copy provided for review
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  • Danielle (Life of a Literary Nerd)
    January 1, 1970
    “But I am not done yet, and I am determined, I am Sasha Stone. This is mind over matter and my mind is the strongest thing in me and I will not falter, will not hesitate …” This book was weird and messed up and honestly, all the things I wanted. Not going to lie, what initially hooked me was the twin element. I will read any and all books that have to do with twins. But I thought the mystery and psychological elements incorporated into the story would give it a unique edge, and that it did. I “But I am not done yet, and I am determined, I am Sasha Stone. This is mind over matter and my mind is the strongest thing in me and I will not falter, will not hesitate …” This book was weird and messed up and honestly, all the things I wanted. Not going to lie, what initially hooked me was the twin element. I will read any and all books that have to do with twins. But I thought the mystery and psychological elements incorporated into the story would give it a unique edge, and that it did. I honestly don’t think I can summarize what this book is about, even so, I think you should go into this book with as little information as possible. All you need to know is that This Darkness Mine is filled with mostly unlikeable characters and some intensely creepy scenes that come together for a truly unique reading experience. Things I Liked The creepy tone is established immediately, and it really sets the stage for what to expect from the characters. Music is a big part of Sasha’s life and I like how it was incorporated. We see her categorize and equal different speech patterns with different music keys. It really worked for her character and showed how she distanced herself personally from others.(view spoiler)[Sasha believing that her twin, Shanna, is communicating with her and influencing her actions is not some big secret. She tells Isaac and her parents early on in the story. I like that it wasn’t drawn out. And they all have appropriate responses that I think work with the story. (hide spoiler)]One thing I really loved was how Shanna’s messages were formatted. (view spoiler)[ She used a lot of “()” an “-” to create double meanings in her words that elevated the unhinged tone. (hide spoiler)]Isaac was my favorite character, and I think he was the most likable one too. He was just a genuine sweetheart and deserves a peaceful and quiet life.I actually liked the dysfunctional little friend group we get to see at around the halfway point. I thought all the personalities meshed well and created this endearing and messed up group. Things I Didn’t Like Most of the characters sucked (I liked that they were unlikeable, it just made it harder for me to connected to them) and I didn’t really connect with any of the relationships until around the halfway point. And ugh, the cheating. This book just took a little time for me to become invested. I feel like some things were not established as well as they could have been, specifically relating to Sasha’s physical and mental health.This Darkness Mine is a book filled with uneasy plots and complex characters that grip you from the first page. This was a very unique book and honestly, the perfect book for this time of year.Trigger warning for body gore
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  • Ashley *Hufflepuff Kitten*
    January 1, 1970
    HOLY SHIT, MINDY.Bumping it down to 4-4.5 after the high wore off from last night. It was REALLY good and also REALLY fucked up and REALLY well-written and EXTREMELY revolting. I'm spoilering the big chunk of the review, just to be safe; it doesn't get specific, but I still feel like my generalities are spoilery enough.(view spoiler)[At first I was in because this sounded like a very Jekyll & Hyde kind of story, and the concept sounded fantastic. The more I read, the more it evolved from Jek HOLY SHIT, MINDY.Bumping it down to 4-4.5 after the high wore off from last night. It was REALLY good and also REALLY fucked up and REALLY well-written and EXTREMELY revolting. I'm spoilering the big chunk of the review, just to be safe; it doesn't get specific, but I still feel like my generalities are spoilery enough.(view spoiler)[At first I was in because this sounded like a very Jekyll & Hyde kind of story, and the concept sounded fantastic. The more I read, the more it evolved from Jekyll & Hyde into Shutter Island. Sasha Stone may just be the most fucked-up MC I've ever run across. Lisbeth Salander is fucked up, most people would agree. But Lisbeth Salander is a vigilante, a sort of antihero. If Lisbeth Salander is Batman, Sasha Stone is Loki. She's the embodiment of the idea that the villain thinks he's the hero. (hide spoiler)]Oh! We can talk about the other characters. I love Isaac. My poor sweet baby who didn't deserve any of this. Layla was cool. Brooke was fucked up. Lilly... idk. Heath is someone I never connected with because I remembered Heath being the bf's name in the House of Night books and he is my least favorite individual. Otherwise it made me want candy bc Heath.
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  • Farren
    January 1, 1970
    4.5 stars!A big thank you to Harper Collins for sending me a hardcover copy of this amazing book early for me to review!!!I'm pretty shocked that this book has finally released and the average rating is getting lower and lower. I don't give out ratings this high often but I thought this book really earned it. While I have all of Mindy's books, I've only read The Female of the Species previous to this one. I really enjoyed it but I wasn't overly impressed with the writing or anything. The prose i 4.5 stars!A big thank you to Harper Collins for sending me a hardcover copy of this amazing book early for me to review!!!I'm pretty shocked that this book has finally released and the average rating is getting lower and lower. I don't give out ratings this high often but I thought this book really earned it. While I have all of Mindy's books, I've only read The Female of the Species previous to this one. I really enjoyed it but I wasn't overly impressed with the writing or anything. The prose in this book are stunning though, and it has only made me even more excited to read her fantasy novels. It's so difficult to review this book without spoilers. The best way I can describe This Darkness Mine: The eerie beauty of Nova Ren Suma's writing combined with the fucked-upness of Ellen Hopkins. I loved every minute of it. Yes, the book is weird, and Sasha was absolutely crazy. Being inside of her head was fascinating. Yes, she's unlikable, but I think that was the point. I adored the female side characters, what a funny bunch of bitches they were, but I didn't root for either guy. Heath was an outright asshole, but Isaac completely contradicted himself as a character. (view spoiler)[ It seemed like he was the one who really knew and cared about Sasha, but I think it was wrong of him to engage in any sexual activity when it was blatantly obvious she wasn't in the right frame of mind. Or in any frame of mind. Because that thing fell off the wall and broke into a million pieces before this book even started. (hide spoiler)] For that reason, I took half a star off of my rating.I literally can't stop thinking about the ending. I knew it was coming. I knew what she was going to do. I read the whole chapter with my hand over my mouth to keep from saying no no no no no no no no out loud. And the best part: (view spoiler)[ She got away with every devious little thing she did. (hide spoiler)]For anyone who enjoyed The Walls Around Us, I highly highly highly recommend you check this book out.
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  • mith
    January 1, 1970
    I have absolutely no words for this book.
  • Kate
    January 1, 1970
    A very messed up and weird ass book!
  • Olivia (The Candid Cover)
    January 1, 1970
    DNF @ pg. 90This book is just not for me. I really wanted to enjoy it, but I became so bored while reading. The plot is strange and not something that is interesting to me, unfortunately.
  • Selene Matheson
    January 1, 1970
    After seeing Trina (Between Chapters) and Kayla (Books and Lala)’s reviews I went into this novel with no expectations. Yes it was weird, strange, and incredibly deranged. No I’m not entirely sure what I just read but it was entertaining. If I had more time I could have easily read this in one sitting.
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